A/N: So this is some kind of fan-fiction from two stories, I have Josh and Nichole from my story, DL and Michaela and Dominic from my friend´s story LTMT. My two guests though didnt talk much so you could say they only have an appearance there... wich is gggrrrrrrrr >_< but hey, this is just having fun haha
Get in the rabbit hole with me ;)
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“Hey, Josh,
come out here” I call Josh to the big white hallway that makes up my mind. I
hardly ever get in there since it stretches long and wide, opening and closing
doors that every time I see have doubled their number. I opened the door for
him. I am not a corporeal presence there, I just am there. I transport him out
of the DL room that more than a room is a galaxy of its own. I place him on the
center of the hallway that leads to all of my thoughts. From the back of the
infinite hallway there is a light overhead like a stage light and right in the
middle of the hallway there is a tall wooden stool. Josh is now sitting there.
I can see lights everywhere pointing at him, even camera flashes. He’s in a
stage.
“Josh,
what's this? Are you becoming more of a singer than a doctor?” I ask him in
surprise
“I don’t
know –he looks around in an adorable way- this is where you placed me” he tells
me and the flashes and stage disappear. He stays there, sitting on the stool.
“Josh! I
can see you!” I say as I observe his silhouette cut in the light, he´s now his
seventeen year old self. I can see his shoulders and the shape of his body. He
only smiles; I can see his perfect white teeth.
“Are you
going to tell me about your childhood, that memory of you and your grandpa?” I
ask carefully, he´s his younger self but there is the consciousness of the
future somewhere in him, he could go there anytime if I´m not careful, he´s in
a way, more in control in his older self, the younger Josh is much more private
but the older Josh knows very well how to say no. He shifts on the stool and
looks to a side where the DL door is, I know who he is looking for so I call
her.
“Nichole,
come join us” I say. She doesn’t respond but I can see her face with her bored
expression. “Nic, come out to the hallway” I call her again. I know for sure
that Josh is more than willing to talk when she´s around
“I´m fine
where I am” her monotone replied. I pull her mentally closer to the door, she
makes me stop “I´m not getting out of here” she threatens just to be difficult,
I know, but I made her and this is my universe.
“I´ll make
the wall recede so that you´re out of the door without moving” as I say it the
shiny white wall on my left starts to move back, making the hallway wider. She
rolls her eyes, I´ve made my point and she´s already very close to the door so
she walks out and as she does I ask Josh “What do you see in her?” I speak to
his mind so that she doesn’t listen. Tonight she's wearing a loose shirt,
jeans, boots, and black gloves. My boy’s watching her walk, she looks way
prettier from his eyes, she even walks in slow motion and although she´s only
taken a few steps out of the door it seems a long walk from his eyes.
“Ah, Josh!
Come on!” I complain in his mind and Whop! Like the sound of an elastic band
going back to its original size, his mind and mine are in synch like when I
write so we see the same thing: the girl standing there just staring at him.
She can’t see me either. I'm just a presence everywhere.
“Here, have
a seat” Josh stands up and lightly pushes the stool to the girl who’s just
standing there
“Nope, I´m
fine here” she refuses
“It’s ok,
you can take it, don’t stay standing” he´s thinking it´s not polite to remain
sitting while she´s standing
“You stay
there” Nichole nods towards the stage light that is directed to the stool, he
turns around to see it. Ah! He and I hadn’t notice it was still on but now that
we do, the rest is obscured. He chuckles. Of course she doesn’t want the focus
on her, he thinks, she´s never wanted it. So he sits and she leans against the
wall and slides down until she´s on the floor sitting Indian style.
“There is
someone I want you to meet” I say to Josh, he looks in the direction of my voice
attentively “I don’t know if I can make it happen though” I say with
hesitation, he gives me his “Why?” face, the one where he slightly tilts his
head and his eyes shine with curiosity and attentiveness. Nichole fights a
smile.
“Well –I
don’t mind speaking to him- I have a hard time finding her and she doesn’t even
belong to this universe, she doesn’t belong to me so she´s hard…-I start and
he´s just looking in my direction-…although, I guess… -I ponder already
standing with my non corporeal form in front of the door labelled LTMT- well,
there´s a door with info about her, in a way she´s there” I say and go back to
being sort of in front of Josh without really being there. Josh looks at me, even
though he doesn’t really see me, expectantly, he´s seen her in my mind recently,
when his thoughts take over mine, so in his young-self there is a Deja-vu kind
of feeling when I talk about her
Silently I
try to call her and I see her walking towards where Josh and Nic are, slow but
not too slow, a little hunched but fighting to walk with head held high. She
stops where I make her stop.
“Josh, Nic,
this is Michaela, Mike” I am proud to say. I can see a very faint blush in her cheeks;
Josh stands up with that feeling of Deja-vu in his mind
“Hi –he
shakes her hand- I´m Josh” he smiles to her feeling that he knows her already
but knowing this is not the case
“Hello,
nice to meet you” my guest replies shaking his hand. I feel frustrated because
I can barely see her
“Have a
seat” Josh offers the stool to the new girl and she shakes her head no with a shy
smile “It´s ok, you can have it” Josh smiles
“No, I´m
ok” this Michaela keeps her polite smile, she´s touching her arm with her other
hand but seems about to move to the stool anyways.
“You don’t
have to sit there if you don’t want” monotone Nic tells the newcomer, she just
looks at her, perhaps wondering what to do, reject the boy´s kindness? Or
disregard the deadpan, blank stare of the girl?
“Nichole…?”
Josh calls out the girl´s name with confusion
“The light,
don’t make her sit under the spotlight” Nichole nods to the stage light and
again Josh and I had forgotten about that. He chuckles, he´s always truly
amused when he does this.
“Ah! Don’t
worry then –he tells Mike- we need another chair” he says most likely to me but
I just can’t make one at the moment. Mike looks around to the white hallway
with many doors on both sides and their golden inscriptions. She's wearing one
of her cute dresses. Should she sit on the floor?
This
hallway is tricky. In a matter of seconds that no one noticed the doors have
moved. Only a little while ago the DL door on the left and the LTMT door on the
right were far apart, now they´re only a few feet away. As I notice this, we
all look back to the door as it opens…maybe someone´s coming but no one appears
there and my attention just don’t stay in one place…
“Josh, you
should sing something with Mike, I´ve been wanting to hear you two” I say
excited, since she´s here I might as well take the chance
“I don’t
have my guitar” he shrugs a little, he´d have it if he could
“No
problem” I say and materialize a brown simple guitar on his lap and a stool
next to him for Mike.
In the
distance I see a head peeking through the open door, it´s a boy of black hair.
I wonder absently if I´m making him do this, he´d probably wouldn’t act this
way, he´s all about keeping his cool but he´s done silly things in the past, in
private, yes, but… hey, it looks cute and he was not planned to be here but
maybe he wants in now that his girlfriend´s going to sing.
I see our
newcomer so they all see him too. “Josh, Nic –I say- this is Dominic” I have a
smile in my voice.
“Hey” Josh
greets, Nichole nods observing the newcomer, she’s never been interested, and
she gets bored easily. Dom only nods back to both of them and shows a little
smile to his girlfriend. I want to laugh. I see similarities that I hadn’t seen
before. Dominic leans against the white wall and bents his knee up, leaving his
foot print on my wall.
“It´s nice
to finally meet you and get to do this” Josh says now that Mike seems more
comfortable and is sitting next to him on the stool. Mysteriously and like
things happen in this place, Nichole now has her drawing pad and a pencil,
she´s outlining the boy in front of her that´s watching Josh talking to his
girlfriend. The girl seems bashful perhaps wondering why he´d want to meet her
when she knows nothing about him until now.
“Thank you”
Mike responds, she´s not much of a talker, not in Nuttyland and I just can’t
get insider her head
Nichole
keeps drawing; time goes by so differently in this place, sometimes so fast,
sometimes so slow; it might give you a headache. She's currently staring at the
pale boy in front of her, lean, leaner than Josh, also with more clothes,
visible undershirt, shirt and jacket, three things at once while the other is
just wearing a simple blue shirt.
The boy
across from her catches her eyes and stares back, but she doesn’t care, it´s
only fair. She´s now drawing his neck, having already outlined his face, his
neck is partially covered by his untied hair. With her eyes she traces his
neck, the slight bump of his Adam’s apple. He keeps staring back and she knows
it but it doesn’t make her uncomfortable, she´s a starer herself whenever she
finds something interesting to watch. This is the first time she´s seeing him
so, a drawing is in order. She´s focusing now in his hands, hands are
interesting to her; they say so much of the person. She notices nails covered with black nail polish.
“A rebel”
she thinks as she notices his girlfriend´s now staring at her and he has a raised
eyebrow with a tiny smirk, maybe a “like what you see?” his jewelry reminds her
of Ash and no! She growls to me in her mind
“No! No one
compares to Ash” she tells me, now she´s mad at me and she lets me know it with
a scoff. Careful Nic, I say, our guests might interpret that differently.
“She likes
to draw –Josh explains to Mike- kind of like taking pictures, like you do”
“Oh”
Michaela is curious to see what she´s doing; she doesn’t like how Nichole is
staring
“You’re
drawing us?” Joshua asks Nichole
“Not you”
the girl smirks and nods to the boy in front of her. Said boy tilts his head
slightly upward still with a raised eyebrow.
“Josh,
Mike, you should sing now” I intervene because this is getting kind of boring.
“Ah, ok
–Mike agrees, it seems like she´s got a hard time saying no- what do we sing?”
she asks and I don’t think she wants to do this but maybe she wants to be a
polite guest
“Everything
has changed” I say
“Ah, but I
don’t know the lyrics” she informs with a light blush. Nichole is still drawing
but no longer staring at the boy, she´s started to work on the face of his
drawing, shading here and there, correcting a line only on occasions she looks
from it to the boy to notice details like the way he sees his girlfriend,
there´s a shine that his eyes have, one that she particularly wants to capture.
She shades the skin under his eyes
“He doesn’t
sleep” Nic thinks and laughs in her mind. Of the four of them only the blush
girl doesn’t have dark shadows under her big eyes. She´s not the only one to
notice this
“Don’t
worry –Josh smiles to Mike- there´s the lyrics –he pointes just ahead of them
where a reflection like a hologram has appeared with the lyrics –they´ll go
just like karaoke ones” he says making me do it his way but I´m happy to make
it happen as he says.
The song
starts with the first notes that Josh plays, the light´s now solely on them.
This has a short introduction during which the other singer took a deep calming
breath. Nichole´s making notes on her drawing pad to remember to finish
Dominic´s drawings. She moves to the next page by the time the lyrics start.
Soft voice,
the girl´s nervous, very nervous with the stranger’s eyes on her but she can do
this, it´s just another public speech kind of situation plus it seems that in
Nuttyland her voice´s improved and that smile that she loves is in her
boyfriend´s face as if he´s unable to contain himself at the sight of her.
The song
gets to the part where both have to sing and Josh smiles to her when her voice
picks up, it doesn’t seem to be liked by her boyfriend’s though and he just
feels like shaking his head at this but he just sings his part now. “All my
walls stood painted blue, I´ll take them down, take them down and open up the
door for you” he sings and I think that this is a good song for these four
people, there are all sorts of walls in their stories that they sometimes take
down, a pair more than the other but still… walls. I laugh at myself.
“all I know
is a simple name and everything has changed…” both my boy and my guest are singing
now and I think how random it is that these four are here now, with me, yet not
exactly all of them are with me. Josh glances to the girl to his right, on the
floor whose eyes are now on them, he shows her a smile as his head moves a
little to the rhythm of the song.
“Green eyes
and freckles and your smile” the song says. Nichole and I agree that it´s like
the two singing, they could be siblings with how well they look there –Nichole
tells me silently- although the girl is sort of fidgeting, touching her hair at
times as she looks at her boyfriend through her long lashes almost as if she
couldn’t take his gaze but unable and unwilling to look away.
Josh is now
easy to draw for Nichole, his tousled short hair, his smile showing some teeth,
his jawline, his shoulders, even the type of clothes he wears, simple, clean, and
light. He´s so different from the other boy, less thin too, sports kind of guy
yet his hands, like the other ne also have some calluses, from something
different, she knows but…. She diverts her eyes from Josh, to see Dom across
the hall observing her; she meets his gaze, there´s intent there.
“Huh,
observing me too, interesting” she thinks and then “Whatever” he can watch but
she knows he won’t, his attention´s back on his girl. The song comes to an end.
“Keep
singing” Nichole tells them making a motion for them to continue, the boy
across the hallway raises his eyebrows. He dislikes her tone, he´s fierce,
nice, she thinks.
“You
haven’t finished your drawing?” Josh asks her, he knows that´s why she wants
them to continue, she thought it looked interesting. He doesn’t understand her
much but of all the people he´s the one who understands her better.
“Nope, just
starting on Michaela –she informs- is it alright for me to draw you?” Nic asks
to the blushing girl as she spares a glance to her protective boyfriend
“You´re pretty
–Nic shows a little smile to Mike- I´ll give you the drawings when I finish”
she promises
“What do
you want to sing?” the girl asks perhaps trying to avoid more attention on her
“A song
that you like” Josh offers and she seems to ponder not knowing what to say
“Play one
of their songs” Nichole´s monotone suggests
“Yeah –Josh
agrees- except I don’t know the old ones” Josh apologizes to Mike, Dom scoffs
“You seem
to know a lot about us” he says with a blank expression to Josh
“We hear
all about you two here when she´s excited about you” Nichole replies catching
Dom´s eyes and motioning her hands to the hallway, to the roof, to me.
“Eh…Something
in the way you are –I think I whispered that one to Mike´s ear- do you know
that one?”
“Ah, sure…
but it´s kind of too high for my voice range” he says apologetically. Dominic
is now on the floor, in his usual sitting way, a little somber, maybe he´s not
taking it kindly that Josh will be playing one of his songs, one that he
actually sung.
“Oh…” is
there a little disappointment in that exclamation? Mike hides herself well from
me. I don’t know.
“How about
that one about the coffee shop?” Josh suggests squinting an eye trying to
remember.
“Falling in
love in a coffee shop?” Michaela confirms; her eyes went wider. Is she uneasy
that they know these things? Maybe she is.
“Yeah, if
you don’t mind –Josh smiles- and if you don’t mind, as well” he addresses the
other boy who shrugs
“Go on” he
says to Josh´s surprise. So Josh starts strumming his guitar with the soft
sound of this song. He wonders how they´ll start this, together? Taking turns?
But he doesn’t have to wonder because the girl starts on her own and it all
goes mellow in the hallway, soft lights, peaceful atmosphere, just music that
feels like sunset. Josh sings the second part.
Big green
eyes that look away, the profile of a nose, the light makes it just a line,
lips, pink tinted lips with a pucker of light on then and cheeks, blushed
cheeks framed by wild curls and waves
that fall on delicate shoulders and lean arms. Michaela sits lady like. She´s
pretty, Nichole thinks, real pretty, porcelain doll pretty, kind of the picture
of innocence and well-dressed too. In the back of her mind, my girl guesses
guys must stare at her all the time but with how she seems nervous at her stare
she must not like it.
She notices
their differences, she´s heard them too, she´s been longer in Nuttyland and her
mind´s been with mine longer so listening to me is as easy as it´s listening to
her for me. “Why do people say I´m hot?” she asks herself as she draws the legs
of the girl in her pretty shoes. She tries to memorize details of shadings
making mental notes because the girl´s clearly hating to be stared at. She´s
made a simple drawing; the dim lights have helped her to finish faster, in time
with the end of the second song. So she stands up.
“Can we
see?” Josh asks, Mike moves in to see as well, Josh takes the drawing pad with
a smile and shows it to the girl next to him.
“You look
pretty” he compliments the blushing girl, her boyfriend has stood up by now.
“Thank you”
Mike replies bashfully as Nichole takes the drawing pad and cuts the pages
“They´re
roughly done but you can keep ‘em… -she offers them to Michaela- if you want”
“Yes, thank
you, I like them” she says as she takes the pages and observes the one of her
boyfriends, only his face and neck are finished, his hands started.
“See you
around, kids” Nichole bows a little as she starts to walk back to her door,
going away.
“Are you
leaving?” Josh asks placing the guitar on the floor, she only nods as she opens
the door and gets in
“I´m sorry,
she´s….” Josh starts
“Jealous”
Dominic says. Josh stares at him with furrowed eyebrows. Michaela stifles a
giggle.
“You got it
wrong” Josh thinks as he´s about to differ
“Guys, I
really need to go to sleep…” I say, knowing it´s gotten late
“Oh!” say
both Josh and Mike
“Well, it
was nice to meet you, Mike. I had fun singing with you, maybe we could hang out
sometime again” Josh stretches his hand to Mike with a smile
“Ah, sure,
you too” she smiles maybe a little relieved… she´s not willing to talk much in
Nuttyland. There is no commitment about another hangout either, which makes me
sad.
“Dominic,
nice to meet you too” my boy addresses the other boy
“Yeah” he
simply says
“Bye” Mike
waves as they turned to leave; their door is again far away so they´ll have to
walk for a bit.
Josh gets
in his door, it´s all green there, trees everywhere. “I think –he tells me-
that Nichole is actually the kid among us, her birthday is the last one”
“Legally
I´m the older” she retorts giving her location, placing Josh just next to her
“What are
you doing?” Josh sits next to her
“Squirrels”
she points up a tree where a couple of squirrels walk on the branches
“I thought
you´d be doing your copy of the drawings….”
“I haven’t
drawn squirrels in a while” she shrugs Josh smiles and takes his guitar to
start playing. I close that door as I observe the two guests slowly walking
through the long, white, wide hallway
“This place
is strange” Mike comments as she touches the walks with the tip of her fingers
as they walk, her boyfriend nods his agreement as he brushes his hand against
hers, she looks around
“No one´s
around” Dominic assures her and she relaxes. They walk hand in hand to their
door until I can’t see them anymore and the lights start to dim…I know I´m falling asleep.
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More A/N: The cool part about this meeting is that now I get to hang both Mike and Dom´s pictures on that hallway ha! they look really really hot btw lol lol
Too much Nic, Saku? yeah, u r probably saying, yeah, she´s always there, let´s strangle her or something hahaha but she´s so much easier hahaha
