one more day...

It was too much this time. Anna left school. She ditched school. She walked quickly though the almost empty street with nowhere to go. Her eyes were filled with tears, too many to be swallowed back. The few people that were on the street saw how her own tears were humilliating her because no matter how much she wanted to stop them they kept flowing like rain. Her lips were red... and she knew that probably her nose too. It was embarrasing. She had to scape, she had to run away, she wanted to be alone... or not...

She walked for a while without direction until she found a park. On the farthest side of the park there were some swings under a couple of trees. Anna sat on one of the trees. There was a little boy on the other swing, when he saw Anna he left. The park was empty now. Anna was alone as she wished but what she really wanted was some confort, she wanted to know there was someone that cared for her but there was no one for her. Her tears kept on comming.

She didnt want to believe yet the hope had crept to her soul and now she was mourning over another broken promise. It was ok, she didnt even care about what the content of the promise was  but the fact that it had  been broken just killed her... He had promise to be there and then he was not there and she foolishly had believed him.
"dad, why do I keep believing on you? you never keep your promises" Anna said. She hated him for making her believe in him and she hated herself for being naïve.

She was not going to cry for his broken promises anymore... they were strangers nowadays... but memories hurt and a hurt soul does not trust any other anymore. She was not going to cry anymore, her tears were not going to humilliate her anymore but the feeling of being left behind was still there but now, she was stronger or strong enough to push it away while she lived through the days.

"stop thinking about that, Anna" Scire said hidding the fact that it affected her too.
"what do I have, Scire? what?"
"Anna, dont..."
"I dont have anything, no wait, I have a fake confidence, a fake strenth, more broken promises than the starts and lost hope..."
"it´s been a while since you dont think on the <>" Scire said, she was desperate to change the mood so even though she also felt a little annoyed for not knowing exactly who this "one" was she reminded it because there was something, a memory perhaps that told her it made Anna´s heart to be a little at ease...plus they had fantasized with this unknown person for quite a while.
"What are you talking about?? -Anna said annoyed- the "one"that´s just some childish fantasy based on lies, something that doesnt exist, someone that does not exist... it´s only in  this sick mind of mine"
"but..." Anna was really upset today... having to pretend she was happy and fine with her fake family always made her upset.
"no buts! stop that! I dont want that...I know it´s been ...fun -Anna said before Scire´s reply- it´s also cause anguish for us... I know it annoys you to feel it´s so real and so reachable when it´s not"
"it´s real, it´s in you therefore it´s real, just like the pain in you that no one sees, feels or understands. The "one" is real I know you can feel it too, it´s real because you feel it, because there´s a memory you have, because you see it!" Scire was mad, she was having flashbacks of a person smiling, of someone hugging her, the feeling that someone had cared. Anna didnt understand what was going on. Was she having a nightmare?
"what kind of comparisson is that? my pain is real, those images that you are creating are just that, imagination or a serious mental illness. Stop it now, it´s enough!"  Was she having a nightmare? was she thinking or sleeping? is this hell?