Invisible

Invisible child.
I´ve become invisible, haven´t I?
You´re stepping all over me
but me being transparent don´t let you see me twisting on the ground in pain.

The invisible child has no voice either,
you stole that one, along with my faith,
they were ripped off of me and the bled hasn´t stopped since.

Invisible child, I have no feelings
only because you don´t see me at all,
how could you feel them when your eyes go past me?

Lying down on the pavement where you left me,
there I became invisible for you,
I got broken and the pieces glued themselves together, all wrong,
my voice was taken from me, all my senses numb only because there´s one single thing that I been left with: pain.

The invisible child weeps
but how could you have mercy of someone you don´t see?
yet the invisible child hopes
only to be once again shattered into dust
again and again and again
let the invisible child disappear

Hell Circles: saving the heir demon VII

“Are you feeling better now?” I asked looking at the crimson eyes that seemed to smile
“Completely recovered” the demon said walking to me and then sitting on the bed next to me. “Thank you so much for what you did for me. I didn´t deserve it yet you saved me”
“You ended up getting your way, didn´t you? that´s what you wanted me to give you willingly right? seems like you´ve won” I was saying that but I knew deep inside I had liked it.
“No, well, I guess, that was, yeah...” Zett sounded unsure
“What do you mean ‘I guess’, don´’t tell me you had lied me all along with that”
“No, it´s just that it´s said that if a never touched fallen angel gives himself to you willingly you are supposed to double your power, to get a miracle of some sort, I guess since I was on the verge of insanity, it was that the only thing that could´ve saved me”
“Power, ha?” I said and the words sounded bitter even to me
“It´s been long ago since I stopped wanting that”
“Is that true? what did you wanted”
“I wanted to be worthy of you and you´ve shown me you´ve forgiven me, that´s all I wanted”
“Worthy?”
“Mh” the demon kissed me, some energy floated to me. Zett grabbed my hand and started to pass on energy. I looked into the crimson eyes, they were filled with lust but at the same time they were soft and lighter. It didn’t match, the same happened with his energy, though clearly Zett wanted me physically -his male body was very obvious, he had just changed to it- the taste in his energy was not bitter like before, it still had hope, gratefulness, life and... “love?” I said out loud without noticing, he blushed.

”Do you...” I trailed off. He laid himself on the bed pulling me and then kissing me, his mouth was filled with an overflowing amount of energy with the distinct taste of love interwoven with other flavors, including one that I didn´t know but liked. I wondered what it was. Zett let go of my lips and when I saw his eyes there was that boiling lust but it didn´t match, the energy was not that thick, unstable bitter energy, it was one with the taste of all those things that had unbalanced his demonic nature, good feelings, and something else, something new. I noticed he was panting, breathing hard, I also noticed how his arousal was showing itself in his body.

“I love you, Eon” he said softly. Without thinking, one of my hands went down his pants, he moaned, and my mouth went to his, to gather much more of that energy, it was the same yet it was obvious lust was in him too, why didn´t it taste bitter but purer than ever?
“What are you feeling? I need to know- I asked, his eyes were questioning mime “you´re energy has changed again” my hand still in his pants feeling the proof of his lust.
“I...-he went to his original genderless form- I”
“Tell me all about it” I commanded and Zett sighed, giving in.
“I feel love -the demon’s eyebrows furrowed- for you, I feel hopeful that maybe you´ll stay with me a little longer at least, I feel grateful for what you did for me, I feel humble because you forgave me and..-the demon paused, then sighed- ah, I want you so so badly” crimson eyes confessed, indeed I could see lust in those crimson  eyes but I felt the other feelings in this new energy, unaffected by lust.. a thought occurred to me, I wanted to shove it away but I had to consider that maybe, it was the flavor of lust the new one that I felt, maybe it tasted good because I felt it too.
“Mad?” the demon asked a bit worried
“This time lust doesn´t taste bitter. This energy that you´re feeding me is the best. I think it´s because I want you too” I said a little confused but as I heard my own words I realized it was true.
Zett smiled widely. “I love you so much” the demon said changing to a human form. We felt each other again and I knew this time, as I was getting that clear, stable, light energy, I was also keeping the balance on Zett.


A week later Zett, in the original form I preferred, took me out, the world outside the castle was chaotic. I frowned at it. We headed to earth, I was ready to say goodbye, we had said goodbye already that morning. I started to walk away from the demon who was standing at the gates of hell in a deserted region. I looked back and crimson eyes seemed awfully sad.
“I don´t want to leave you” I softly said, not expecting Zett to hear
“ I don´t want you to leave me” was the reply I got. The evil´s child walked towards me. We met half-way. We hugged


“I love you” Zett said
“I want to stay with you, I said, I don´t know if it´ll be forever but now that´s what I want most” we kissed at the gates of hell and there I knew that was what I was supposed to give willingly, it was not my body, though it was part of it, it was my freedom. As I realized that, light seemed to come as mist bringing energy and power to Zett who grabbed my hand, eyes filled with intense love and I knew I was also getting the demon´s freedoms as well I was granted mine. Without me doing it, my wings spread and the body that had have me stuck broke into million pieces that the wind blew. Zett saw me in awe and I kissed the demon feeling that intense love and selflessness in the energy that was now being passed to me. I held crimson eyes tight and flew up, up, up to an isolated place, our own heaven where till this day we live in.


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A/N: that was the end of Zett and Eon´s story. I might write and epilogue or not. who knows. I think I won´t be making any other story with gender neutral characters, it´s hard!! Yay me for another story finished -even if I´m the one saying it.

Hell Circles: saving the heir demon VI

A/N: wow! a post on Monday! well ofc this one´s been done for days. Out of a coincidence, this story will end up in 7 parts ha!
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“Mh” Zett in that original form that I prefered uttered following me trying to start a new kiss. I didn´t oblige. Zett 
went back to laying still on the pillows while sighing a few times, I grinned. During all those two weeks, one of the demon´s hands had been clasped with mine, just like that first time, and the other at a side, not once said hand had touched me or had been in any other place than over my pillows. I set the pace. Looking back, I don´t think that was a good thing... I was tangling myself without help.





















































 “He says he´s having fun over here” Zett finally gave me a reason for Yotta´s long stay.
“And why is that?” I asked. Zett looked away. I waited sitting up.
“I´m the opposite of this when I´m with Yotta, he enjoys that very much” Zett said sounding defeated.
“So mornings with the angel, nights with the devil?”
“Mad?” crimson eyes asked worried. I laughed.
“What else could I expect of a demon?” I said amused “I just dislike that I can´t go out, I actually liked the dome on the ceiling”
“Nytio will come and get him eventually” Zett said dismissively
“Who´s Nytio?”
“Nytio is one of Yotta´s playmates”
“Is Nytio also yours?” I asked curious
“At times” the demon admitted after a while.
“Am I one of your playmates?” the question had just occurred to me. Maybe the demon had tricked me into this because of that something I liked.
“No. I never knew someone that could make my energy change like this, to control me like you do without really doing much” the evil´s child said a little reluctant. Some part of me liked the words and that same part made me go back to take that sweet, light energy of Zett´s.

Two more weeks passed before Nytio came and one more before they left. Religiously, all those days, I had Zett laying on my bed, head on my pillow and that large amount of almost pure energy that tasted so similar to the taste of love except that who was providing it was a demon.

Countless times I asked myself if it was love but then I also remembered that as we were kissing everyday, at night, crimson eyes was upstairs going all the way with Yotta, and once Nytio came, with him as well and maybe even with Drea and who knows who else, that cannot be love, I convinced myself, I was sure it wasn´t lust either, for it had tasted bitter before but it was something else, contentment perhaps.  By the time the demons left, my wings were almost fully recovered. I was almost happy. Once out of my prison, as Zett had promised I was going to fly back to earth, it ought to be better than hell I thought. Zett had seemed to cry a couple more times when the promise of letting me go was reminded. I never made the demon to tell me what caused that change of mind, however; I preferred not to press on the subject for the outcome was what I most wanted.
The day after the demons left, Zett asked, very sad, if I wanted to go out that day but I answered that the next week would be better. I had estimated that was the amount of time for my wings to be fully recovered. A wide smiled was drawn to the demon´s face and with that there was a new flavour to taste in the energy I was fed with, it tasted similar to the taste of hope but it was all mixed with fear. I knew well the flavor of hope because I had been a guardian angel and that´s the kind we try to give. But I had been taught that demons do not have those type of energies. I wondered how Zett was able to produce them.

Everyday of that week before our going out and my liberation Zett spent it with me, either just sat in my room-cell while I prayed or read  or feeding me, the soft taste of hope had grown stronger in the mix of flavours this demon´s energy provided. I had started to like it a lot. I wondered not few times if I was going to find such energy on earth, maybe not, but I´d take whatever one that I could get or  I´d simply consume human food though eating has it´s inconveniences and I was not fond of the process of digesting food.

The days seemed to slip one after the other while I fed of Zett´s energy and planned my future life on earth. I had gotten stronger and my hope had grown as well. I knew I was going to be able to defend myself from demons and from humans, the demon had been really generous in giving me energy.

On the set day of my liberation I waited for Zett, the only one who had the power to let me go of the castle but the demon never shown. Drea was sent to apologize to me and to reschedule for the following day and then the following and the following and so on for a while. Drea gave me no reason and my hope of being free again started to vanish and I thought that maybe the flavor of hope that I had felt was my own desire to taste it. I cried and then I prayed. At night I slept badly, I had dreams of Leah dying and then of her beating me in that humid dungeon where I had met Zett. All my fears came back again and I felt empty. Who was I to hope? a fallen angel´s prayers don´t pass the ceiling, even less the hell itself.

The dream made me  woke up in what felt the middle of the night and decided that I had to confront Zett, I could do that, the demon had said I was going to be free from that prison and even before, there had been a time in which I had considered to let crimson eyes do anything to me if I was set free. With that in mind I left my room-cell, the halls were poorly lit. I climbed up the stairs and walked the dark hall that led to Zett´s bedroom. Last time had been unlocked I hoped this time it was like that too but it was not. I knocked on the door and a weak “come in” unlocked the door -the castle itself obeyed Zett´s words-. I entered, like the hallways it was poorly lit, I barely distinguished the huge bed in which Zett had to be on. I walked to it and when I was close enough I was shocked to see a pale sick-looking Zett. The crimson eyes were squinted as if the light was too bright, however; it was hard for my human eyes to see.

“Zett!” I exclaimed, my voice sounded somehow worried “what has happened to you?”
“Eon” a weakly, barely audible voice answered
“You´re sick! -the demon nodded- what do you have?”
“I-I..” crimson eyes said and started to cough. The energy the demon was emanating felt so weak, however it was quite clear.
“I´ll speak to Drea” I said
“S-stay” Zett said fighting to say the words. I nodded and sat at the edge of the bed. The demon took my hand and I felt energy being passed to me.
“No -I said softly- I´m fine” I noticed only the eyes remained the same, as last time, clear yet deep still crimson eyes that seemed to plead. As time went by, the demon started to cough more and the energy felt weaker. The harsh face that I had seen for the first time so long ago in the dungeon now was sallow and the light in the demon´s eyes seemed to be growing weak. As Zett fell asleep I went out of the room. I felt pity for the demon´s condition. I wasn´t sure if I was supposed to feel bad for a demon. Can demon´s die? I did´t want to think I was feeling sad about that unlikely but sad possibility.

“Drea” I called. The demon materialized in front of me
“Yes, hiosp Eon” the servant said and bowed a little. I´m not your hiosp I wanted to say. I´m no demon but it didn´t really mattered.
“What´s going on with Zett?”
“Hiosp is sick” he said. I was mad at him for making me ask questions.
“Is there any doctor or anything that can help?” I asked thinking that was more important to know than what was happening exactly.
“There is” Drea said, I waited for more but he didn´t say anything. I was getting impatient, mad. Then a memory came to me, I wondered if the sevant-demon was going to do as I said.
“Drea, report the situation” I said imitating what I had heard Zett say once.
“Yes, Hiosp Eon” he said bowing again. “Hiosp Zett is sick. Zett´s  nature is fighting with itself. For a long while now, Hiosp has been giving you a type of energy that is not what demons give and that´s what´s fighting inside him. When hiosp Yotta and hiosp Nytio were here,  part of their energy was taken and that balanced Hiosp´s nature but when they left no source is available to  make things balanced”
“What? so giving me pure energy has made Zett sick?”
“Yes, think of it as a glass that is poured ice cold water when it just had boiling hot water, it will break” Drea said. My mind was filled with so many thoughts.
“You said there was a way to make it better, tell me about it, Drea”
“Hiosp Zett needs to balance the demon energy, Hiosp Yotta or Nytio could help on that, doing as they did before, even I could but I was refused” the servant sounded mad. I knew he was blaming me for what was happening to Zett. I also sensed he was resentful for being rejected.
“Why? Zett´s been fooling around with them for who knows how long, why not now?”
“That I don´t know, but what I do know is that the love that has grown in Hiosp for you has trigered all this” even thought he tried to hide it, maybe Zett had warned him to treat me nicely,he still sounded really mad
“What? what love?” As I said that, the puzzle seemed to fit, I ignored it.
“Haven’t you noticed? what demon could provide of pure energy if not out of love and hope? You were going to be free, just like that, where do you think that comes from? what other reason there is to let you go like that when you have given nothing in return?” Drea was furious now.
“Can demons feel love?” I asked more to myself than to Drea. I had suspected that to be the reason of that change in the energy I was fed with, I had almost tasted it but how could it be?, it was a demon after all.
“Apparently” Drea replied faking politeness.
“Well, call Yotta or Nytio” I said not wanting to talk about the possibility of Zett loving me or not with Drea.
“Hiosp won´t allow me to”
“What? just call them, Zett´s not here now”
“Zett casted a spell, if I call them I´ll be punished” the servant sounded serious. I didn´t want to insist on that, after all I had known Zett´s cruel side, who knows what punishment Drea was going to get if he disobeyed.
“Are you willing to give your energy to make your Hiosp better?”
“I am, but I’m not allowed to that either”
“Isn´t this demon stupid?” I muttered “what will happen if things keep going on like this?” I asked, to get sick was never seen among angels but I knew spirits, or at least angels, could not die. Could demons die?
“All of hiosp consciousness will be lost. Zett will wander around aimlessly and eternally, decaying more and more. Insanity is what will happen”

I heard Zett coughing and walked into the room sitting on the edge of the huge bed.
“I´m calling Yotta and Nytio” I said. The sick demon looked at me with questioning eyes “Drea said they can help you and that he can´t summon them”
“No” the answer was given in a barely audible voice
“Ok, let Drea help you then” I said about to call Drea but the demon’ s head started to shook “Why not?”
“What else could I expect of a demon” Zett quoted my words. I blinked.The balance on Crimson eyes had been stopped the balance because of my words at the time when Yotta, Nytio and Zett had been together. I sighed.
“Well, that´s your nature, what do you prefer your nature of to lose yourself, to go insane?”
“Insane” the demon stuttered
“It seems you’re already insane” I said rolling my  eyes at the answer I got and at me trying to save the demon that had hurt me. Maybe this was my way of atoning for Leah. The evil´s child smiled. “But why? you seemed happy with your party/orgy/evil life” I said.
“Not happy. -My hand was touched by Zett´s hand- happy”
“Ok -I lifted an eyebrow- you were happy with me but you can still have your other side, plus you knew I was leaving”
“What could I expect of a demon” Zett repeated “I´m sorry I didn´t let you go when I said”
“It´s ok, you´re sick but why do you care what I said that day?”
“I, Zett, child of Geon, successor of the eldest open the gates of this  castle for Eon to come and go as he pleases” the demon said weakly using that strange demon tongue I had heard before. I had learned to understand a little of it during the spent time there. “You´re free to go” Zett said and seemed to get worse.”You-b-be careful” the words were dragged. For moments, crimson eyes seemed to stare blankly at nowhere.

“Look at this -I said spreading my fully recovered wings- you helped me with this, I thought I was never going to get them back. I can´t leave you like this. I´ll convince you one way or another”
“I won´t listen to you” the stubborn demon replied
“Well, I don´t care” I replied back, crimson eyes seemed amused by that statement “I´ll give back the energy I´ve taken from you”
“Would you give up your beautiful wings? besides you can´t pass on energy with the body you have, you´re stuck in it” Zett´s voice was like a dying lamp, dimmer and dimmer.
“Well, I´ll summon Yotta or Nytio, no, I´ll just summon them both, the more the merrier” I joked
“No, please, Eon, no”
“I´m doing it, even if you want it or not” I closed my eyes and breathed “Yotta, Nytio, I...”
“No” the demon tried to yell getting up and falling off the bed. I´m sure it hurt so I gently  lifted and placed the demon back on the bed.
“Are you already insane?” I said mad
“Eon, please, allow me to try to be worthy of you” Zett sounded defeated.
“You need them or you´ll go insane”
“I- I- rather have that because I tried” crimson eyes tried to get up to meet my lips.
“Lay down” I said and for some reason I leaned to kiss, when I did so, I felt the demon´s faint energy, cleaner than ever. I wished I could pass energy even if it meant to give up my wings. Without noticing a drops came out of my eyes, tears, and fell over the demon´s cheek, when Zett realized what it was the faint energy got stained with fear and sadness and then I remembered how I had liked the ability I had to control that energy, to lead it so that it eventually got new flavors and a nicer texture. I just had to do that. I smiled stopping the kiss to see Zett.

“Don´t call them” the demon pleaded
“I won´t but I need a favor” I said, Zett nodded “are you able to change to one of your human forms?” I asked my heart starting to beat harder. Crimson eyes seemed confused but nodded again and with what seemed great effort changed to a male form.

My heart felt like it was going to come out of my chest. I had seen male Zett before but this time it was as if I was looking at him for the first time, his fair skin and long brown hairr, the line of his jaw, the shape that was drawn by the sheets, my heart pounded faster. Carefully I removed his covers and climbed on top of him. He was very surprised and breathing hard I didn´t know if due to his sick state or if due to my actions. I leaned to kiss him. The kiss was short because he was quickly out of breath.

I unbuttoned my shirt and tossed it to a side. His eyes grew curious, it seemed like a good sign. I kissed him lightly this time and then while kissing his neck I unbuttoned his shirt, and then my pants.
“What?..no..” he uttered confused
“Let me” I said staring into his crimson eyes. He nodded once. I unzipped his pants and remembered how one time, while he was in a female form, I had been led south that body, I did that this time. He breathed in and his faint energy changed just slightly. I lightly touched him while kissing and caressing his face and chest. I tugged down both of our pants, looking down at him that once again had no underwear to remove. I looked at his eyes and some of that boiling lust had started to form there. I stared down to his body again and noticed my hand there had have effect for his body had reacted.
“You don´t have to do this, Eon” he said, his voice recovered but it was strained.
“I know” I said still staring at his crotch. My heart was pounding even harder. I noticed some other parts of my body felt to have their own beating as well. I touched him less lightly and he moaned, his energy already increasing. It seemed that my own body was reacting at me touching him. I stopped for a moment. Many thoughts were boiling in my mind but at the same time it was blank, empty as if no thoughts were there.This was something I had never thought I´d do, even less with this demon or any demon.
“I can change to my female body” he offered, a little more recovered, that same strained voice though.
“This way is more sinful” I imitated his voice and words as best as I could -despite having no real thoughts and having a ton. I kissed him and when I saw his eyes, they were completely filled with lust. He didn´t touch me though. I kissed him again, deeper and longer this time, I told myself the fact that I knew he wanted me was the thing that made me keep going at it. I might had been lying to myself.

“Be a good playmate” I said and he chuckled.  His hands went to touch my face, my back and pretty much everywhere in me, it felt like electricity. I breathed harder.We started to move at the same rhythm, his moans and sighs and my name mixed between those gave me some strange pleasure. I could sense his energy as if it were my own, I wasn´t taking it though. It was only for a moment but so many things were happening, there was so much to discover and so much to feel. It was intense like a dance with music made of our own noises and voices that the rhythm we had produced rising to a peak when we became one, descending to tired breathings at the end, my afterthoughts mixed with his whispers of love and care.


I woke up and felt a weight on my bare chest, it was Zett´s head, he was snuggling against me. He seemed and sounded pretty recovered after that sinful long night. I caressed his shiny dark hair and smiled, he was still in his male human form, though throughout the night he had changed to female and male a few times. “What a perv!”, I said out loud and laughed softly.

“Thank you” he said later when he woke up, and changed to his genderless original form to kiss me. I notice Zett was trying to feed me.
“No, just yesterday you were not good. I´m fine” I said. But in truth I did wanted that energy which seemed to had gotten better.
“Well, I’m good now, thanks to you” the demon said kissing my bare chest and I guessed this was what crimson eyes had wanted me to give away willingly. I guessed the demon had won, though in a way I had too. Zett started to kiss me and to touch me more, and though reluctantly at the beginning,I did the same and once again we danced to the rhythm of our bodies and the music of our voices as the night before, and as that night Zett danced with me leading both the demon´s female and male body that morning and the night after that. 

After a week of a similar routine I felt exhausted and the demon seemed more energetic than ever. I decided to go to my own bedroom the night after a week had passed. I was laying in bed reading a book I had taken from the library when Zett came in. Crimson eyes seemed to try to talk but failed.

Hell Circles: saving the heir demon V

A/N: One more part of this story, maybe there´s one of two left. My internet connection is really slow right now, I don´t know why so I wasn´t able to find a good image for this post. I´ll find it later or not.  This is supposed to be a short story but I´m thinking in adding an epilogue... we´ll see.  Ah, now that I remember, I´ve noticed that I have readers from Russia and the UK wow! 
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Zett, not as male or female, came by to visit me a week later. I had been able to keep count of the days because since last time, every day, Drea had come to tell me something like:“it´s better for you to stay in here today. The Hiosps are still in the house”

When the demon came in I was sitting on my bed reading the last book, which seemed more of a magazine of some sort, of the ones on the shelf in my room-cell.
“There are more in the library” the demon commented sitting next to me on the bed I only looked at up and said nothing. “Did you like them?” crimson eyes asked.
“This one mentions you” I said
“What does it say about me?”
“I do not really understand it  but it mentions your name, unless it is talking about someone else named Zett”
“Let me see” the demon said and I handed the book. Zett started to read. “Hiosp Zett, the child of Geon and the eldest of us is among those who are eligible to become the next in command. The eldest of us, however; seems to have more confidence in Zett´s cousin and brother, Yotta, child of Rye. Hiosp Zett hasn´t made any declaration but Yotta and Zett have been seen together, maybe an alliance is on the way, although Hiosp Yotta has made comments about it. I´ll command if that´s the eldest wish, I´ll take Zett as my wife, Yotta joked using the human word wife...”
“Do you have gossip magazines like human do?” I chuckled a little. A smile was drawn as the demon´s eyes softened.
“Who do you think taught them to get them?”
“Wow. So, you are the son of the devil?” I asked. Zett seemed to be taken aback
“We all are, in a way or another, but... yeah”
“Geon is the name of your mother” I said “but we are spirits, we can´t have children, how...?”
“Well, Geon is the demon that possessed the woman that carried me... she made a pact with Geon and in return she had to carry the eldest and Geon´s child”
“So, she agreed...” and suddenly it occurred to me …”is that what you want from me?” I have to admit it shocked me.
“Eon, I want no children and you are not possessing anyone´s body, this is just a body you made for you in which you´re stuck” the crimson eyed being said and I nodded.
“Yotta is your cousin...and...”
“Yes, Geon and Rye were born of the same woman, so they´re siblings, and Yotta and I come from the eldest, therefore we´re siblings and cousins as well. This is hell, Eon -Zett said, maybe I had made a face- but you know, humans do that sort of thing as well”
“I know” I said “I just didn´t know you were born from women, I thought all of you were fallen angels”
“No, I was never an angel, I was just damned to be a demon from the start -Zett seemed incredibly old when that was said, even though spirits don´t age- You are a fallen angel but aren´t a demon, Eon. Only some become a demon, others just wander forever as fallen angels” the demon finished and I sighed sad. My cheek was being caressed by the the demon as I felt energy escaping from the hand on my face. I smiled and pressed a light peck on Zett´s mouth, as I thought a huge flow of almost clean energy went through me. The heir demon blinked
“You blushed” I exclaimed, I was sure Zett was aware of it though.
“You´re hungry”
I simply watched as the demon changed to a male form. I frowned a bit, he smiled and went to his female form. She kissed me and at the beginning I let her but then the energy got thick, Zett´s eyes in the female form were, as it happened with his male form, boiling with lust. I shook my head.
“What´s wrong” she said, she had a husky yet soft voice.
“I think I prefer your original form” I said a little reluctant. She chuckled
“Well, is this body or the male one, choose” she said grinning as if something really good had happened.
“Why?” I asked leaning forward, almost close enough to kiss her, energy escaped from her just not the one that I wanted. She tried to close the space between us but I didn´t let her, yet I kept my forehead pressed to hers. “Why?” I asked again and she sighed turning to a male form who tried again to close the space between us. I did the same as before. “Why?” I said again brushing my lips to his and then moved away to stare into Zett crimson eyes.
“Why not?” he asked sounding impatient “What´s wrong with this body or the female body?” there was again that husky voice.
“What´s wrong with your own?”
“Why don´t you like this one?” he changed into his female form “why don´t you like this one?” she asked again.
“Your eyes change, as does your energy”  I said and she furrowed her eyebrows. I leaned in and kissed Zett in the female body, she blushed and her energy changed but then it quickly changed again, I let go and saw her eyes boiling with lust. “Go to your male form” I said and though Zett seemed confused she did so. I got closed and he tried to kiss me. I moved away.
“No, go!” I said and my voice sounded mad.
“What happened, did I...?”
“I just...” I trailed off and with that his energy changed to almost what I wanted, he leaned to kiss me and his energy changed to that thick unstable energy again. I moved away and realized, I had kissed him and let him kiss me a lot today. Was I starting to like it? I shove that thought away and grabbed the magazine to place it back on the shelf. I notice Zett, in his man form, was breathing hard.
“Eon?” he asked and when I turned around his eyes were a mix of lust, desperation and what seemed to be fear. I stared at him to assess that. He blushed and I smiled deciding to explain what I had done. I see now that somewhere in the back of my mind I was having fun teasing him as I was.
“When you are in your male or female form you give away that thick, unstable energy, if I make you blush it becomes better, lighter but those bodies are quickly filled with lust and that turns the energy again to thick, it even tastes bitter and your male body even shows it´s arousal -I said sitting on the bed, my bare feet on the floor. He looked at his crotch, the prove that I was right. He laughed- It´s much more easy to get the light, stable and clearer energy when you are in your original form.”

“It´s harder to control” he said, his words sounded as if he was not going to give in to what I wanted. I only looked at him, he blushed again. I said nothing.
“What are you thinking?” he asked. I said nothing. “Eon” he pleaded.
“I told you what I think but I guess it´s as you said, I have to take what I get” I said and sighed. He sighed as well.

“Yotta is coming over today...”
“So?”
“If I let you take that clear energy you talk about, it´ll be harder to conceal it later to Yotta, he, unlike you, thinks the other´s better”
“You can unbutton me again” I said and surprised even myself
“You are so clever at tempting the devil -he said smiling mischievously- but even then...”
“Ok” I said stretching my hand to him and looked away to then close my eyes. He didn´t take my hand instead I felt him move and squat in front of me touching my face. I heard him sigh.

“When doing this...your eyes are quite helpful” he whispered and I opened them to see Zett´s genderless original form right in front of me. I smiled because I had gotten my way and that was enough to start getting the clear energy that I wanted. The demon got up, not letting me go, and sat beside me, leaning to kiss me, I leaned away. “Eon, please”

“No” I said soundless. The demon looked down, the energy changed a bit, Zett was mad or sad perhaps. “It´s changing back” I commented.
“I don't have much control on how my energy tastes” Zett said sounding sorry. I led the demon to my mouth. I felt a smile being formed against me and the taste seemed to change again, it was almost sweet. Zett had not much control but apparently I did, with that in mind I deepened the kiss and a greater flow of energy came to me. Crimson eyes tried to lay me down on the bed but I opened my eyes and got up of the bed scared that his lust had come back.  

“I´m not going to hurt you anymore” the demon said extending a hand which I took. Zett laid on bed, over the pillows. I could felt the demon´s entire body emanating energy, not as clean as before but close.

“Eon” Zett said letting go of my hand I stood there watching the demon´s eyes that, now, were deeper than ever, still crimson but somehow clearer.
“Eon” the evil´s child called my name  again when I sat at the edge of the bed
“I´m giving you what you want... Eon” the demon seemed to be pleading. I shook my head. Was it possible? crimson eyes seemed to be crying. “I´ve wrong you deeply” my jailer said more of a statement than a question. I really didn´t want to think that this same demon that was now pleading was the one that was holding me captive and that had beaten me non-stop at the dungeon.
“I am a prisoner” I said.
“This world is not what you think” was the demon crying?
“I´m trapped here”
“We´ll go out as soon as Yotta leaves, it´s just a few days” crimson eyes looking sad. “Eon, if then you want to go, you´ll be free to go” A hand grabbed mine and the projected energy coming from it hinted that the words were true.-are demons capable of ...amends... of good things?
“Eon” the evil´s child sounded unbearably sad.
“What is it?” I started to feel pity of the spirit laying on the bed of my room-cell, a soul that never had the chance to know goodness or heaven or the mind of an angel. This demon had never had the chance to be good. Was I feeling sorry for the demon?
“You´ll go”

I leaned over and kissed de demon -am I feeling pity for Zett, I asked myself again- but that clear energy, completely clean and with a flavour quite similar to that of love, which I hadn´t taste in a long time consumed all my attention because the more I kissed the demon, the more I got and it was at my pace, for Zett´s hands didn´t touch me and though I was followed when I separated my face from the demon´s lips there was not insistence to keep me there, no one was making me do anything, yet I was too engrossed with the taste and feeling of liveliness of that pure energy coming from that crimson eyed demon that I forgot it was coming from a demon and since kisses seemed to be the trigger for it, I kept pressing my lips over Zett´s with intervals of just staring at the crimson eyes until Drea knocked twice and then two more times until the demon-servant opened the door in the middle of me staring at Zett.

“What?” Zett said with a displeased voice not caring to look at Drea but lost in my eyes.
“Hiosp Yotta is here already” Drea said and Zett growled.
“Go tell that impertinet to wait for me” Zett said, still under me, our gazes locked. Irritation made the energy to taste sour. So I went back to kissing the demon´s lips which produce a smile that I felt against my own lips. I let go.

“You have to go now” I said. The demon blinked. Zett seemed a totally different being.
“Did it changed back...?” crimson eyes said a little flustered, eyes were quickly closed.. I chuckled and the eyes opened looking confused.
“Nope, but I don´t want Yotta near me” with that I sat up and the demon groaned.
“Damn Yotta” the crimson eyed being said hissing..
“Ok” Zett said getting up of the bed. The demon paced the room twice and then turned to a female form in front of me. “What you said before...” female Zett said. I nodded and she walked to me. She leaned and tried to kiss me but I moved away, shaking my head but didn´t stop her when  she slowly unbuttoned my shirt, little by little her energy started to change. She unzipped me and her energy had changed quite a lot yet I chuckled.
“What?” she said lust making her voice somewhat thick
“Yotta will find out”
“Ah?”
“Even now, I can sense a tinge of the clear energy interwoven with that boiling lust of yours”

Drea came again to tell Yotta was impatient and was coming up if Zett didn’t come down fast.
“Damn Yotta” Zett cursed again but didn´t achieve to change her energy completely to that thick one.
“I can help you, Hiosp” Drea said getting close to Zett who smirked and seemed to agree with the idea.
“Come here” I practically commanded Zett who seemed to be as surprised as I was, despite that, she walked towards me. I looked at the bed and she sat. “Take that off” I said and her eyes grew wider but took off the shirt and jeans she was wearing, no underwear to remove. I groped her breasts and she gasped. Surprise concealed the clear energy. She tried to kiss me but I moved away. One of my hands traveled south of her body and she moaned closing her eyes then she opened them taking my hand leading it pass her navel, as she did so, the lust and desperation in her eyes took over completely.  She grabbed my hand and pulled me down to a side and climbed over me, attempting to kiss me.
“I don´t want Yotta near me” I said shoving her off
“Concealed?” she asked putting her clothes on.
“Very”
“Mad?” female Zett sounded worried. Drea came in and I heard Yotta´s voice over the hall, Zett darted out and it all stayed quiet after that. I sighed at my behaviour and wondered why I hadn´t let Drea “help” Zett but instead of thinking on that I decided to enjoy the flow of clean energy I had have, I was going to have time to think about everything else. I decided that during that time I was going to try to feel happy with what I had gotten, it was so similar to what I had before, I just wished that I still had my wings to spread and with that I extended my arms and to my surprise two wings extended, the amount of gathered energy had allowed me to grow back my wings, it was nice despite the fact that they were weak and they felt incapable of flying. I was amazed.I hid them and extended them a couple of times just for the pleasure of having them, after that I felt compelled to pray as a thank you to the Lord who had allowed my wings to grow back. I kneeled down taking my rosary which burnt only a little. Once I finished the rosary I started to sing songs, the ones that I used to sing in heaven, then I prayed for Leah the girl that had been under my care and that I had failed to protect. I felt sadness starting to creep into my heart.


The next day I was awoken by Zett still in female form, it was the first time this happened.
“Yotta is asleep -she explained- it´s too early in the morning, demons prefer the night”
“Ah” I said a little sleepy, my back still to her. She caressed my hair.
“I shouldn´t have woken you up” she said softly, placing a hand over my bare shoulder. I felt energy coming out, I wondered if she was giving it off or if it escaped her. This energy was a mix of many things, at times thick, at times light.
“Your original form is better” I said rolling over to face her. Female Zett smiled and went back to the original genderless form I prefered.  I closed my eyes, I had spent most of the night praying for Leah, hopping my prayers helped her to get out of where she was.
“You´re making me sleepy” the crimson eyed-demon said after a while in silence.
“Then go to bed” I mumbled and I felt the demon´s face over mine, a few inches away, I moved mine to a side.
“Mad?” Zett asked, flustered and worried  like the day before.
“Why?” I asked still sleepy with eyes closed
“Yesterday...” crimson eyes trailed off “and just now...”
“What about now?”
“You moved away”
“I prefer your original form” I said once again “What about yesterday?”
“I´m sorry about yesterday”
“eh?” I opened my eyes.
“I never knew if you were mad at me, at the end...”
I gave a soundless “oh” “No, I was not, it was me who pinned you down”  I said closing my eyes again. Zett chuckled a little and put a few loose strands of my hair behind my ear. The demon left.

When crimson eyes came back I was once again trying to understand the language on the magazine.
“I can teach you to read it” Zett offered. I noticed he was now in his male form
“Umh, sure. Is Yotta still here?”
“Yes, Yotta´ll stay for a few days but he´s still asleep” he sat on the bed next to me. I could clearly see the intentions in those crimson eyes. We stayed quiet for a while.
“Was it true what the magazine said” I asked “about you and Yotta”
“No, we only have fun together. I prefer that demon to be the next eldest”
“If Yotta is, it´ll mean he could take me” I commented
“I haven´t thought about that” he said and held my hand while changing to his original form, the flow of energy was instant, not as clear as it could be but good.
“I´m fine, Yotta might sense this energy on you” I said looking at our clasped hands. Zett looked at me.
“You don´t want...?” the demon was so different now, nothing like that demon kicking my guts.
“I do but...”
“You don´t want Yotta near you, I know, that won´t happen”
“Great” I said and the demon laid down, not letting go of my hand. I didn´t move but a big part of me wanted to do what I knew would make the flow of energy greater and better. I looked at the crimson eyes as they stared back. It was clear in those eyes that Zett wanted me to do it but the demon was not going to say a thing knowing I´d take that as an attack. I searched for traces of cruelty, violence or lust in the eyes that were looking at me but there were none, the crimson eyes seemed clear yet somehow deeper. I stared intently the demon´s eyes seemed to smile. Was that possible?
“Your eyes have changed” I informed
“What do you see?”
“Right now they´re starting to tinge with lust” I said raising an eyebrow, a strand of my hair brushing the demon´s face.
“I´m sorry, Eon, but it´s hard not to feel lust and desire being close to you” was the answer I got, once again Zett´s eyes seemed to become deeper
“You have that look when you see Drea and Yotta too” I said rolling my eyes. The demon looked down “however, they seem clearer somehow, deeper and something else I don´t know how to call”
“Like yours then, clear and deep” the demon´s eyes became even clearer, though still crimson, they seemed to have light. The breath that carried the words coming out Zett mouth was loaded with that energy that had allowed my wings to grow. I could see it and I wanted it and so I went for it. Zett sighed contented -or so it sounded to me. We kissed and The demon´s free hand was placed on the bed and the other holding mine. Time passed and the flow of energy was constant and clear, enjoyable. I felt contented. A knock on the door interrupted me. Zett seemed angry.

“What?” the evil´s child said and Drea came in
“Hiosp, you asked me to let you know when...”
“All right, all right, go away now” the demon exclaimed  irritated. I chuckled a little, moving away.
“No” was the mumbled I heard.
“You have to go”
“Yotta can wait”
“I think you´ve fed me enough”
“Eon” this pleading only flavored sweeter the demon´s energy so we kissed once more. I let go immediately after that.
“Drea!” Zett called and the door opened “Where´s Yotta?”
“Hiosp Yotta is in the library” the servant informed while Zett went to his male form. He turned to me.
“Will you help me this time?”
“I think what’s going on through your mind will be enough today” I said for his energy changed completely as he spoke yet he seemed bummed at my words. “I want you to keep them, the thoughts, they help” I said and he smirked wickedly leaving my room.

“Yotta has stayed longer than a few days” I said removing my lips from Zett´s. It had been about two weeks since he had arrived. Zett had visited me everyday and I had been fed with the demon´s energy every single of those days. As my wings were getting stronger and more like they were before I was getting used to kiss the crimson eyed demon to get that almost pure energy.

Hell Circles: saving the demon heir IV

A/N: Are my muses getting pervy? lol This one´s a little longer. And also this one´s kinda special because it´s post 302. I didn´t notice when I got to the 300th post and the 301 is sort of a rant so I´ll take this one as the celebration of going over 300 posts. Yay! I wish me many more good posts to come!
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“Yotta is a fellow demon, we´re in good terms or at least we were -the demon started to say answering my question even if I hadn´t answered- but Yotta is older, therefore; more powerful. In our houses, however; we are the ones in command, only the eldest of our kind has the right to command some other demon´s home. Yotta visits sometimes. He is able to divide himself in more than one as you´ve seen already. By trying to take you when I hadn´t allow it, he was violating the treaty we all have which is in our house, we command, so, he had a punishment, and that is what amount of strength he has more than me has gotten divided into both of us, making us equal” crimson eyes said and put a finger between my eyebrows, I realized I had furrowed them. “even among chaos there are patterns -Zett said letting go of my hand- ask”

“I´ve grasped that ‘hiosp’ is the way a servant calls you, you called Yotta that way...”
“I thought angels knew our language”
“Mostly warrior angels”
“I see, well, what you said is mostly true, hiosp, is some demon with higher rank, power or age than who is talking”
“Like your highness”
“Similar, yes. Something else on your mind?” Zett asked exhaling breath filled with energy that brushed my face.
“Why would he want anything with me?”
“There´s no reason, Eon, demons are demons, we usually crave for what we can´t have, for what´s forbidden and you were someone he couldn´t have. Take me, for example, right now I want so bad to press my mouth to your lips but I can´t, we have a pact, but that´s what makes me want it even more” the demon said looking to my lips.
“If you were able to have your way with me you wouldn´t want it then?” I asked my eyes fixed on the crimson eyes that for second seemed to shy away but then the demon smirked a little and lust crept to the crimson eyes.
“I´d have had my way long time ago and by now I´d probably be bored of you but you´re not letting me to have my way” eyes traveling through my body. I kept my eyes fixed on those eyes while I shook my head.
“I thought so and therefore I´ll leave now before I ruin my chances of you giving me what I want willingly”
“what is it that you want?” I asked quietly -I realized this was the first time we had have a conversation. I also wondered if I was tolerating it because it had been a long time since I had talked to anyone.
“That -the demon said getting up and touching my nose with a finger- is something I can´t tell, but you´ll  know when the time comes”
I looked at the crimson eyes genuinely curious. Zett bent a little as if to kiss me. “Please” it sounded like a pleading. I shook my head. The demon  sighed and left my room.

After that last visit, a few more days passed and I realized I had started to lose the sense of time specially in that room-cell with no windows, it made me feel sick that I didn´t know how long I was going to stay there. During my time alone I had been thinking of ways to escape, granted it´d be really dangerous to make Zett mad and since I didn´t even know where I was I didn´t know if I was going to find Yotta out there or some other worse than him. With worry in my head, desperation in my heart and a little bit of weakness in my body I opened the door or my room-cell and walked out of it for the first time since I had gotten there. I noticed I was in the second floor of what seemed like an old stone castle, from where I was I could see the first floor and at my right and left there were long halls with many doors. At the right there was another stair at the end of the hall. I decided to go up, instead of down, hoping that there were a few windows up there since light seemed to come in from somewhere. The house seemed to be deserted but if I payed attention I could hear quiet voices somewhere. I climbed up the stairs and got to the third floor, I noticed that there was a resemblance of a window in there, it was just as big as a brick but I could see light throught it, nothing else though, there was some kind of thick glass to cover it that didn´t allow to distinguish anything from the outside. I walked to what seemed the end of the hall but discovered that it just had a turn, it was darker there, only lit by dim lights.

I guess out of boredom I walked that hall, the only one that had no outside lights which was the opposite of what I was looking for. I opened a door, the third one and gasped at the sight of what I saw. Like snakes, some people -I didn´t bother to count them- were naked kissing and touching each other on a huge bed with black covers. Right when I was turning on my heels  to go back. I felt a hand over my shoulder.

“Zett, look who decided to pay a visit”  the being next to me said.
“Eon!” Zett said sitting up of, he had his male human form. I didn´t say a thing but attempted to go.
“Don´t go, join us now that you´re here” the being said and then the others on the bed said echoed with the same voice.
“Yotta, let him go” Zett said, an edge to his voice. I turned my face to see. I was starlet to see the demon that had just weeks ago cursed Zett. The beings on the bed with Zett kept caressing him, minding their own business. Zett pushed them away and got up of the bed walking to me, no clothes on his body. The beings that were with him seemed to become transparent as they flew and became one with Yotta that was still holding me still by my shoulders.
“Yotta” Zett called the demon while taking his hands off me, I stepped back
“Zett, just let me at least see him” he said looking at me. Zett laughed and looked at me. I shook my head.
“There!, he doesn´t want you to see him” Zett said leading me out.
“He came here, our agreement was that I wouldn´t go looking for him but he´s the one who came to me”
“No -Zett said- he came to me. He didn´t know you were here”
“I´m not letting him go” Yotta said firmly.
“You´ll make me lose a lot if you keep up like that” Zett said.
“Like I care” Yotta said and Zett laughed
“I won´t allow you here anymore then” Zett said and Yotta gasped
“You´re insane, I don´t know why don´t you just take him at once”
“You´re way too impatient, Yotta” Zett pushed me and I walked away walking fast. I heard them laugh more.

I was so unfortunate, I thought, to find that lustful demon again, I didn´t know if there were others in the house but I didn´t want to go back to my room-cell since being out with the beams of light gave me the sense of a little normalcy back.
“Drea” I called softly and saw a demon materialized in front of me. The servant slightly bowed. “Is there any windows apart from these in the house?”
“These are the only ones and that one” Drea walked to the fence at the edge of the halls and pointed up. In the roof of the house was a circular dome made of glass, it wasn´t that big, but it was enough to see some sky. I was dazed.
“Are we on earth?” I asked. The demon didn´t answer, I guess Drea wasn´t supposed to. “Are there any other demons here, now?
“There are always demons in here” Drea said amused “I´m always here”
“Like Yotta or Zett” I clarified
“Ah -the demon just seemed to grasp the meaning of my question- no, there are no other demons that are equal or higher than hiosp Zett”
“What kind are there?”
“A few servants only, all under me” was the answer and I relaxed a little. For some reason I was sure that Zett wouldn´t let any of them do anything to me, they must know that too.
“It´s better to go back to your room, hiosp Yotta can come out at any time and your room is the only one that he cannot come in” the demon adviced.Is he supposed to take care of me? I thought. I nodded knowing my room-cell was safer. I walked back and instantly missed the view of the dome once in there. I cried, remembering how free I had been, able to soar through the skies at any time and now, I was a prisoner of a demon. I cried till i fell asleep. The longer time I wasn´t feed the more I needed to sleep. It was a great punishment to be stuck in a human body.

I woke up and didn´t know if it was another day or the same day or night or some other night. I felt weak, besides my hunger, my sadness was making me weak. I fell asleep again and woke up and fell asleep, it was an endless cycle, I don´t know how long passed. I had just awoken when I heard the door to be opened and closed. I didn´t acknowledged the one who had entered though I knew it was Zett.

“You haven´t come out in a while. Yotta is no longer here” Zett said. I kept looking at the ceiling of my cell. Crimson eyes looked me, I stared blankly at nothing in particular. The demon leaned in as if to kiss me. I stared blankly, I was prisoner in here, no matter what that was not going to change. Zett got really close but didn´t kiss me.

“You know, I heard the demon´s voice speak, Yotta kept me thinking the other day...” Zett trailed off and unbuttoned the first button of my shirt. I kept staring blankly. The next one got unbuttoned and I looked at the demon for an instant. “I want to see you” Zett said. I stayed quiet. “Answer me” the crimson eyed demon commanded.

“You haven´t ask a question” I simply said looking at the crimson eyes, they seemed to have changed somehow. The corner of the demon´s mouth made the resemblance of a smile.
“Tell me what you think of me wanting to see you”
“If that´s what you want to do, you´ll do it. I´m a prisoner after all”
“I´m asking you to let me see you. What can I do to make you want me to see you?” Zett sounded irritated.
“You´ve seen me before -I said not really thinking so- and nothing, you can do nothing”
“Yes, but that was to clean you up” crimson eyes seemed ashamed. Can demons get ashamed I asked myself. “So you wouldn´t mind me seeing you?” I got asked, all traces of shame gone
“Never said so” I said and once again stared blankly at the ceiling. The demon sighed and got up walking to the door. I thought the evil being was leaving. I was starving and, unfortunately for me, that same evil being was the one that had what I needed.

“Damn! I´m going to die of impatient! stupid, Eon, you don´t know what you´ve done” Zett, taking his male form, murmured and then turned back to where  I was.

“Your eyes look ugly” he commented. I only saw his “before they seemed with so much life, those green eyes now seem empty” he said closing my eyes with his hand “even rage works” he said and unbuttoned another of my shirt buttons. I did nothing. He growled and finished unbuttoning my shirt then he went to my pants. I didn´t attempt to stop him but my heart started to race I felt angry and scared at the same time. Climbing over me, he unbuttoned and unzipped it, he was about to pull them off when I hit his stomach with my knee. he grunted. I got up pushing him to the ground and hit him again and again and again. For some reason he didn´t defend himself, he very well could, I was really weak after all. He was on the ground, he crawled to me and did something I never thought he´d do after me hitting him, he kissed my feet. I was startled. He looked up at me.

“Ask whatever you want” he said
“Let me go” I said at once
“Not that” he whispered
“I want to go, do whatever you want but let me go” I said and tears streamed down my eyes.
“Anything?” he asked getting up.
“I wanna go” I simply said.

His eyes changed again. His hand took off my unbuttoned shirt while I stared at him hate in my eyes. He went down and pulled my pants off. I glared at him. He looked at me while tugging my underwear down. He stepped back and observed me. I stared at his crimson eyes filled with lust. He gasped. He grabbed my hand and tried to lead me to the bed. I didn´t move. He got close and lifted me putting me gently on the bed. I kept glaring at him. He climbed on top of me. His hand touched my cheek and I made a disgusted face. He was breathing hard. He leaned down to kiss me and I moved my face away. His hand traveled down my stomach and it stopped suddenly right below my waist  when I started to stare blankly at the ceiling again -I wanted to be numb- he attempted to kiss me again, this time I didn´t move. I kept staring at the ceiling. He growled.

“Why do you do this to me?!” he said and climbed off of me. He grabbed my clothes and help me put them back on.
“Are you really that sad?” he asked
“I´m a prisoner here, go figure” I said mad and he sighed. I wanted so bad to go out of there “tell me what you want from me so that I can give it to you and I can go out of here” I said mad
“You´ll know what it is once you want to give it to me” he said calm
“Is sex what you want? you´ve been lusty looking at me since the dungeon. If that is it, do it, what ever, I don´t care. I just want to go”
“What is it that you think you´ll find out there?” he asked
“Anything but being in a prison”
“You are no angel anymore, you are a pray for demons now, you have nowhere to go, you have no home anymore”
“I´ll pass a a human”
“We´re not on earth, this is hell, Eon”
“I guessed so” I said laughing with irony. In  the back of my mind I wondered what was that sky that I had seen through the glass dome.
“Out there you´ll just fall deeper”
“What do you care, maybe when I fall deeper I´ll come back here to bang you and Yotta together” I yelled and surprised myself for what I had said. A ghost of a smile touched his face.
“Eon, he said caressing my cheek, you are no demon, you should still be an angel”
“No, I shouldn´t. I am what I am, I deserve this!” I said without noticing and started to cry. He hugged me and perhaps out of the mere need to be hold by someone I hugged him back still crying.
“No you don´t. What could you have possibly done?”
“I let the little girl die” I said and the words were muffled because my face was buried on his shoulder. “and now she must be here, suffering as she did in life. I was not good enough, I couldn´t comfort her soul and she killed herself, less than twenty years, and she killed herself”
“That wasn´t your fault” he said
“It was, it was” I insisted
“And that´s why you were thrown down here” he said, more of a statement than a question. I nodded. “I´ve never heard of an angel being thrown to hell for a suicide”
I said nothing just kept shedding tears for the girl and for where I was now.

I woke up alone and weak. My eyes swollen after the tears. The demon, this time without a male nor female body, entered to my room, eyes soft, sat next to me and held out a hand. I fed of the energy that the hand provided. I was somewhat thankful with the demon for comforting me by letting me cry as I had. I stared at the crimson eyes. I saw a smile spread over Zett´s mouth.

“You have beautiful green eyes” the demon commented and for some reason I felt embarrassed. I wanted to thank the demon for earlier and for now but I couldn´t make the words come out of me so I did what I knew Zett would like. I leaned forward, still looking at the crimson eyes that seemed to be smiling, only I moved. When we were an inch apart I parted my lips. Zett seemed surprised at my actions but looked at my lips and then at my eyes which I closed. The demon leaned forward closing the distance between us. The kiss I got was light yet intense. It provided me with energy. I heard a small moan as I felt the demon´s tongue entering my mouth. This kiss was different, it felt chaste somehow as if it was no demon the one that was kissing me. I moved away just a little, the demon let me go.
“Thank you” the demon said still with closed eyes
“Those were my words” I replied. I got a smile as response.
“Well, you´re welcome and thank you for that thank you” the demon said blushing a bit.
“I didn´t know demons could blush” I commented
“We can under certain circumstances” Zett said looking down.
“Which ones?”
“The most beautiful green eyes staring deeply into our eyes, for example” the demon said now looking at my eyes. I tilted my head.
“How come you didn´t blush at all when I walked in on you last time you were with Yotta and who knows who else in your room? or when your eyes boil with lust, you don´t blush at all in those situation”
“That was just Yotta and Yotta´s ability to make many of him and... sex is just sex, lust is for a moment but your eyes seem to pierce through me” the demon said blushing again. I chuckled, the first time since I had gotten there.

“So, my staring at you makes you blush? I asked leaning a bit still staring at the crimson eyes. The demon´s mouth was opened and closed as if words were lost as soon as it was opened. “Your energy has changed” I commented feeling a shift in Zett´s energy
“What do you mean?”
“It used to be thick and unstable, now I feel it lighter, somehow similar to the one angels provide, a bit intense also” I said concentrating in the  energy. Zett let go of my hand. I saw crimson eyes questioningly.
“I have a meeting -the demon said- it´s best for you to stay in here, the house will be full of demons” I nodded and grabbed Zett´s hand. I was even surprising myself with my behaviour.
“Are they here yet?” I asked
“Do you still want more?” the demon asked, I was glad I didn´t had to explain I wanted more energy.
“This new one is better” I said feeling the energy flow being provided to me, but this time it was mixed with the old one which was in a way bitter. I wondered if it had to do with him getting blushed that the energy ‘tasted’ better. I decided to try and I knew the easiest way was a kiss. I realized the idea didn´t seem as repulsive as before, maybe all my angelic nature was dying now but I really was in need for that more pure energy. I wasn´t ready to kiss the demon so I pulled Zett´s head a little with my free hand and only that made his energy become cleaner, better. Zett had in fact blushed. I parted my lips.

“Really?” the demon asked surprised and very blushed, breathing fast, but then the crimson eyes seemed to start to boil with lust and when I saw that I leaned away quickly. Zett seemed to guess what I had seen. I saw the demon´s eyes closed taking away the blush as well as the light energy. I started to let go.
“No more?” crimson eyes asked sounding a bit disappointed
“Thick and unstable” I simply said.
“Try again” the demon asked mumbling. I squinted my eyes but just with that the energy improved, so I tried again and smiled when I started to get what I wanted.
“The first time... -the demon trailed off- did you really wanted me to kiss you?”

“I don´t know” I said after a while, I didn´t know if I was just using that to get what I wanted. I also guessed my angelic nature  was indeed vanishing.
“Should I try?” crimson eyes asked and a large flow of almost pure energy seemed to escape from Zett. I smiled because it was enjoyable and the smile was taken as a yes, before I knew the demon was kissing me, without letting go of my hand. I realized then that Zett put a big restrain in the energy that was given to me because as the kiss got deeper, though gentle and careful, an even larger flow of energy came out to me, even from the demon´s  hands and rest of the skin, it was getting cleaner and cleaner but somehow I could feel Zett fighting to restrain that energy but I liked it, the cleaner it got, the more I liked it; so much that I put my hand over the demon´s cheek, causing a smile and the energy once more shifted to...

No, I thought to myself, it cannot be, at that moment Zett abruptly let go of me, looking at my eyes but not really wanting to look at them. We heard a knock on the door.

“Come in” the demon said. It was Drea.
“Hiosp, your guests have arrived”
“I´ll be right there” Zett said and Drea left.

With eyes closed, Zett changed to his male form.
“A favor” he said not looking at me. I remained quiet. He moved towards me “let me unbutton you” It was an odd thing to ask but his eyes seemed to plead, his hands moved to my shirt and as he unbuttoned the first button his eyes didn´t change. “Please” he asked and I just looked at his hands on my shirt.

“Just that” I said, once again, surprising myself. Slowly he unbuttoned the six buttons of my shirt and then the one of my pants, I was starting get uncomfortable specially with that lust starting to boil in his crimson eyes. He unzipped my pants and his eyes were no longer projecting that clear energy he had given me but he didn´t do anything else, just left the room, his male body obviously aroused. It was hard for me to believe that such lusty demon could provide clean, stable energy so similar to the one that angels share, so much as that of...love. It was a ridiculous idea but for a second I thought I tasted it in Zett but demons were not capable of love, I didn´t even know if I as a fallen angel was capable of it anymore, let alone him.

I grabbed my rosary to pray and noticed it didn´t burn as much as before but as the days passed it started to burn again, I guessed it had to do with that clear energy  I had have that day.