wandering **3. Midnight talk

Ana was about to get to her home. She got off the bus but she had to walk a few blocks. It was getting dark and the street was empty which was strange because usually by that time of the day lots of people were walking by, comming from their work places, but not today. She could barely see some shadows ahead and behind her, the mist made them a blur in the distance. It`s so strange that the street is so empty at this time of the day, she thought and her innervoice answered "so what? do you know any of those people or something?" she smiled bitterly and looked up to the sky, despite the fog, the pale moon was visible, beautiful and right above her.

When she got to her house, she took out her keys and opened the door, her parents were there already, her mom lying down on the couch and her dad right in front of the T.V. Neither of them turned to see her when she came in.
"I`m home" she said quietly, and she only said it because her mother hated it when she didnt but the truth was that it was her father`s rule, her mother didnt care if she said it or not, it was silly "to say I`m home should be because you are happy to be back" she thought.
Both her parents answered with a murmur, without looking at her, her mother told her that her dinner was in the fridge. Ana went straight to the kitchen, took the plate, reheated its contents and went to her bedroom. She hated it, she hated that routine, getting home and eating alone in her bedroom, she could remember that just a few month ago it was all different but she could do nothing. "Just look at the bright side of it, Ana" her inner voice said.
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She woke up in the middle of the night without a reason, she got mad at herself since she knew she was not going to be able to fall asleep again "go back to sleep" she commanded herself... she was there staring at the ceiling, listening to the crickets trying to fall asleep, instead of that, her inner voice woke up, this night it was a bit nostalgic.
"do you remember that wall you used to climb?" the inner voice said
"of course I remember. Why does it matter?" Anna said, annoyed.
"it was a very thick and strange wall, dont you think, that house was really old, right?"
"mh.."
"do you remember the first time you climbed it? the inner voice asked
"what does it matter! go back to sleep!" she said "Oh my god! I must be going crazy" her inner voice didnt listen to what Anna commanded and kept on talking
"You were sad, I dont remember why, but I felt like dying"
"what? you dont remember??!!" Anna interrupted her inner voice "how can you say that when it was you the one in control of me?"
"oh, come on! you know you love me! -most of the times-" her inner voice answered and laughed "and you always back me up, dont you?"
"stupid voice! we`re the same person!"
"I know that however, I also know that you do nothing to shut me down...there must be a reason, right?" Anna rolled her eyes "anyways, where was I?...ah, yeah... the first time you climbed that wall..."
"that you climbed??" Anna said
"ok, ok that we climbed it, happy?, you were so sad, we were so little, I dont think we are crazy, I just think we are different, we share a wish that no one else wishes... back then, we lifted our hands to heaven, remember?"
"yes... I was looking up to heaven, it was weird, we felt like a little bird in a cage, and that place did look like a cage right?" her inner voice chuckled "we closed our eyes but we could still see the sky, right?"
"yes, it was so conforting!" the inner voice said
"I dont think so" Anna disagreed
"well, but at least we were able to cry in that peaceful place and to say our pray"
"I know... we thought God would listen to us..." Anna sighed
"he listens to us... he just doesnt want to..."
"yeah..."
without noticing Anna`s body relaxed and the sounds became silent...she was finally falling asleep.

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mmm Anna is so strange right? lol