Saturday, April 6, 2013

Double Life: Sweets and Salad


A/N: The tittle of this post makes me laugh. Also, this post is half as long as it was supposed to be... I´m still deciding some things on the other part and it felt better to end this one where it ends even if it´s shorter
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“We should go for dinner, Josh” Aaron interrupted the silence. Josh glanced at Nichole next to him. “What do you think, sis, I mean Nic” Aaron smirked
“Well, bro –Nichole rolled her eyes- shouldn´t you think of mommy and daddy?” Nichole shook her head and Aaron laughed
“Mom´s working tonight, emergency at the hospital and dad´s not coming back until Monday…”
“Ah, yeah –Josh started- mom asked me to apologize to you, she wanted to be there to welcome you”
“Don´t worry, it´s ok, she was kind enough to invite me” she half-smiled
“You know what, sis? We´ll have the house for us tonight, so yeah, let´s forget about the dinner out”
“Dinner somewhere nice, Josh” She said and the boys chuckled

On their way, it started to rain. Aaron from the back seat saw the gloved hand of Nichole subtly going to touch his twin´s hand that was resting on the handbrake. He turned over his hand and laced his fingers with hers giving it a light squeeze and quickly glancing her with a smile on his face, like saying “I´m ok.” A small smile crept on Aaron´s mouth. She was worrying about his twin. He looked at Josh´s face through the rear mirror and his twin looked back.
“So she knows?” Aaron´s eyes questioned and the corner of Josh´s mouth went up. Nichole and Josh´s hands stayed intertwined for a while until Josh had to shift gears.

They went to a café, it looked like a garden, and there was a fountain like a small waterfall and greenery around. The smell of cinnamon, coffee and cocoa filled place making it feel warm and cozy.
“What do you think?” Josh had opened the door for Nichole “The desserts are really good in here”
“It looks nice” she smiled a little

“Are we here to have dessert for dinner?” Aaron sat down across from Nichole
“Nic likes sweet things” Josh sat next to the girl
“Really?”
“Is that so surprising?” she picked the menu
“Well, you don´t seem the kind…”
“What kind do I seem like?” she tilted her head to a side
“Well… you know… you look like the salad and diet coke type” he said with eyebrows slightly furrowed, she stared at him and then started laughing
“Why are you…”

“Are you ready to order?” a brunette interrupted Aaron. Both boys looked at Nichole
“I´d like the chicken crepe and green tea, and he´d like –she motioned to Aaron- a salad and diet coke” The boy´s eyes widened and his twin laughed quietly, she was grinning with the side of her mouth
“What can I get for you?” the brunette asked Josh, a little frown in her face
“The same as she”
“Coming right up” she was about to leave
“I´m not done, I´ll have the club sandwich with my salad” Aaron narrowed his eyes at Nichole

“You´re into sweets… how do you…?” Aaron made a sand clock shape with one of his hands
“Liposuction”
“Not even funny”
“Could´ve said the same thing to you” she retorted, the brunette brought their drinks

Aaron raised his eyebrows with enquiry when her eyes stared at him. “What is it?”
“The lollipops” she glanced to her side
“Liked them?” Josh said after nodding twice
“Ate them already”
“Really?”
“I shared”
“Let me in the secret” Aaron rolled his eyes and once again he was interrupted by the brunette, this time bringing their food

“What´ve you been up to?” Aaron tried for conversation again
“Exercising… you know, for all the sweets that I eat” she winked
“I really thought you were not coming” he said
“I thought so too”

Josh parked the car in the garage. It had access to the main house. The boys carried Nichole´s bags to the guest room on the second floor. On that floor there were pictures of the family and of the twin´s as babies, together and on their own. The room they gave the girl looked cozy. It had a big window on a side.
“Hey! Wil, Bob and Helen ask if we want to hang out with them tonight” Aaron glanced from his phone to Josh and Nichole
“They are our cousins” Josh explained   “They live close by”
“Mh… I…I feel a little tired but I can stay here, you guys go…” she smiled
“I´m staying with you” Josh said, Aaron grumbled
“I´m not going to be the jerk that leaves his guest alone” he typed something on his phone “We´ll watch a movie or something” he went out the room and down the stairs. Josh smiled.
“Movie?” he said. Nichole nodded

~~~
“Hey, our cousins decided to come…” Josh stopped frozen in place. Nichole was standing right across from him. His mouth opened but no words coming out of his mouth. Nichole furrowed her eyebrows and looked at herself. She had taken off her shirt, she was only wearing a blue top with thin straps, it showed a little skin on her stomach. She lifted her eyebrows.

“What happened to you?” Josh found his voice; she followed his gaze to her shoulder and saw the purple bruise on her shoulder and the marks of hands on her arm.
“Close the door” she opened the suitcase in a fluent motion and took out a white knitted sweater, she put it on and then tied her hair in a loose pony tail. “You were saying about your cousins…?” she smiled knowing Josh was the only one so far able to distinguish her real and fake smile
“What happened to you?” he walked closer, she sighed
“A few bruises, it´ll be ok in a few days” she said and his eyes seem to say “that was not my question”
“Nichole…”
“Your cousins…?”
“They won´t miss us much. Did someone hit you?”
“You won´t let it go, right?” she sighed again. He shook his head. She looked up to the ceiling. “I got into a fight but I´m fine, Nat already took a look at the bruises, no real damage, he got the worse part of that”
“He?” his eyes went from wide and surprised to narrowed and angry, concern layered somewhere in them as well
“Ah, yeah, he got it worse”
“Who is he? And why would he hit you?”
“He was …responsible of my training, we had a disagreement”
“Who is this guy? And how can he get away with hitting you?” anger dripping off the boys words, the side of her mouth went up
“Don´t worry, he didn´t really get away with it”
“Why did he do it? Did you report it?”
“Josh… your cousins…”
“He could´ve hurt you bad” he took her hands in his “why didn´t you run from him, you´re fast”
“I… I was sort of helping someone”
“Who?”
“A girl I met there”
“Nic” his eyes softened, melted emeralds. He softly hugged her. “Why were you even there?”
“Josh, what about your other guests?”
“Don´t want to talk about it?”
“Later, I might tell you later” she closed her eyes
“Ok. Wil, Bob and Helen should be downstairs by now. They wanted to meet you,  I guess…”he said, she sighed “They’re good people” he said, she smiled “As bad as to give a fake smile?” he raised his eyebrows
“Maybe” she smiled again, a real smile

My Mind Wanders


 *I found this one buried in my e-mails. I wrote it in February 25th of 2011*
I love this pix. It´s in the vid of "Give Me Love" by Ed Sheeran

I used to loved him,
He was my everything,
He was all for me but he destroyed it all.
I don’t love him anymore,
And now I can say it coldly, finally.
I never expected to stop loving him
Or to be able to say I loved him
But I don’t love him anymore.

I am your light,
That´s what was unstated in us,
I am your light and when your eyes are closed like that I´m in darkness.
You are my light we both said to each other.
No more light,
Our eyes are closed and we are asleep,
Some annoying dream is what we see.
The light´s gone and we´re tired of watching,
We´ll go on sleeping.

My mind drifts away to other paths…
Fantasies come to my soul,
Fantasies that once were yours,
That once I dreamed for us.

I loved him
And I loved him deeply,
With every atom of myself.
He and I were the only thing that existed
But we didn’t really exist now I know.
I thought it was alive but it was not,
It died away.
Love songs were mine,
Love songs were you,
Your name is no longer in their notes…
My mind drifts away to other paths.

Despite life


I was great
Yesterday was good, fun
Despite the pain, despite the walking, despite life
I woke up today to a warm bed, a comfortable pillow, a smile of my brother
I wanted to have a good day
But it seems it´s starting with a lot of drama
I´ve been throwing the word love this whole week
And it just keeps stabbing me
It´s as if what I give is never enough
I just can´t break myself and put me back together to fit what others want
It hurts and it has me broken and cracked and withered
I can´t do it anymore
But that seems to be what others want of me
Maybe they think I´m some kind of clay that they can mold to fit in the spaces they want
When will they mold to me?
Perhaps that's something that someone like me shouldn´t expect
And I don´t
And my heart confuses my mind
And I do
And they expect it from me
And they take chunks of me
I never learn....
Things are still the same, people´s just people, just men, just women...
I could give them names but they´re just what they are
I shouldn´t expect and I don´t but I do
I set myself for things like this
But it´s Saturday and I was wishing for a good weekend
I won´t mold to them anymore, be sad for them, 
Go on loving them despite the pain, despite the stabbings, despite life
And I know I lie
I can´t just forget them like they do once I´m of no use to them...

Thursday, April 4, 2013

EMG

a bit of disdain, that´s what I feel
I´m in a lot of pain
what a week
a broken heart, a broken health, a lot of pain
I got my EMG today
electricity shocks were sent through my legs
needles were stabbed in my muscles
I can´t begin to describe the pain, that hours later still lingers
I got the results today, I got a paper cut from them
it said nothing good...
That´s what´s going on with my body
this, though, is what´s going on with my heart
it´s in pain too, a lesser pain that is like the soft rain in a tropical storm
it usually ends up killing and damaging more than a thunderstorm
you cut me just like that paper did
You were there when it was for me to listen to you loving someone else
I was there to listen to you and though my broken heart didn´t let me stick until my heart turned into dust, I was there to let you know it was ok...
You said you thought you´d lost me too
and I assured you I wasn´t going back on my promise
 of giving you my friendship with no time limits...
once you got that assured... you´ve dissappeared again...
since it´s not about the one you "love" you leave me behind even though you got mine
but I´m working very hard.... I seem to have a blind and stupid heart, always wanting what it can´t have but maybe that´s what it wants... not to have no one to actually kill it
but again, I´m working very hard,
I´m letting you go and it is like having to walk around with the EMG needles
which is a pain I don´t wish for a single soul
but as the places where the needles tore open,
my stupid stupid heart will have to heal,
wether it wants or not... because I´m pulling you, the needle, out of it.
and I pulled you off of it and just like those needles in my legs
it hurts so bad, even without them in, and I can´t help but cry
and I feel as if they are there, as if the electricity is pinching the inside of my legs,
that´s how you feel in my heart, the space you left is in pain,
a pain that also makes me cry
but as time goes by, at least the ones in my good leg will heal
I will make my heart heal...
I have a scar on my leg... on my good leg...
I bet you´ll leave an ugly one in my heart but at least in won´t hurt
it won´t be pretty and complete anymore
and ppl will look at it with disgust or pity perhaps
but at least it won´t hurt and you won´t be nailed at it
and I´ll walk away, on my own and free.

Monday, April 1, 2013

Tissue Box


You think I´m your personal never-ending Kleenex box don´t you? 
Well, guess what? I´m emptying and soon no more tissues for you
And I think you just took the last bit of my soul
You threw dirt to my eyes
And stepped on my heart
Just go away
I don´t want to see your face
Or ever listen to your voice again
You could tell me how to find my own tissue box though
That might be useful
I won´t feel bad to wipe off on someone´s heart
You got me with no soul to sympathize
I´ll walk this way
Go find some other to clean your tears
Who cares, right?
Yeah, you were right, I´m the stupid here
I gambled my goods for you
What else could I have expected?
You jump and you hit the ground
Silly me thought I would conquer gravity
Well, I´ll put my heart in a cast
Humans heal their wounds all the time
Back to my business
And good bye stupidity, 
It was not nice to meet you at all 


The Devil and its Pawn

A/N: It got a little longer than what I expected... but here is is... the second and final part of this tale.



“Is your talent to eavesdrop?” she said to me. I thought she was oblivious of me. I opened my eyes and light was filtering from somewhere for I saw her features, she was wearing a white dress with a low cleavage. I said nothing, my legs were killing me. It was like thousand needles pinching my skin. She walked to me, knelt down and grabbed my arm, she bit my wrist, and something cold was entering my veins as my warm blood was gushing out to her mouth.

“Your system is clean of narcotics now” she announced getting up, once again she sat on an invisible chair right in front of me. “Now, tell me what´s your name?”
I didn’t answer. She chuckled. “Jaune did bit your tongue but it must be healed by now”
“Healed?” the word called my attention, dead men do not heal.
“Yes –her voice was similar to those of women on expensive perfume commercials- you are healing… you had a good plan there… there was no way you could´ve survived a fall like that or the amount of drugs on your blood, you made Jaune hallucinate a little –she chuckled- too bad I was around, too bad I saw you sitting there and waited the exact moment when you fell”
“What am I doing here? Who are you?”
“Ah, you know who I am, you heard Jaune say my name”
“Omega” I whispered
“Exactly” she smiled, I caught a glimpse of her white teeth and her long canines “Now tell me what to call you”
“I don’t remember” I lied, I didn´t want to be called my name anymore. I had gone there to stop being who I was and there was this woman asking for my name. She chuckled.
“Your blood told me your name and you do remember but I don’t mind giving you one” she put her index finger under her chin looking up as if she was deep in thought, then she laughed quietly “When you fell, it looked like you were falling from the sky”
“What do you mean my blood told you?”
“I know everything you know, it´s all in your blood, you know, life is in the blood”
“Don´t you get tired?” I asked, she´d been all the time sitting on an invisible chair
“I don´t” she sat on the floor Indian style; she was in the exact same spot.
“How do you do that?”
“You are very curious… I like it. You´ll be able to do something like it… it´ll take time though”
“It?”
“Yeah, I told you, you broke your neck and your back in two places, that´s why you can´t move now but you will”
“And you know that because…?”
“Because you are mine, Sky, and I don´t fail”
“So, I am not dead?”
“You are not” she said and I closed my eyes tightly “Are you disappointed?”
“I wanted to die” I said bitterly
“You died” she said
“Are you having fun telling me I am dead and then that I am not dead?” I was angry
“Actually, I am –she chuckled- I am only disappointed you haven´t guessed what we are” she sighed, I glared at her “What do you think we are?” she asked placing a cold hand over my thigh
“I don´t know… I thought you were some animal and when I thought I was dead I thought you were some kind of demon, you even said you were the devil…”
“I can´t be the devil because you´re not dead?” she raised her delicate eyebrows
“No”
“Why not?”
“I don´t believe in such things” I said, she laughed
“But when you thought you were dead you believed, how´s that?”
“If I were dead I could asses that there are indeed things like heaven or hell”
“So, you coming to the mountains…?”
“Why do you ask? Didn´t you say that you knew all I knew?” I said and she laughed again
“I knew I´d like you, you´re good” she leaned over me and kissed my neck softly to then bite me hard. I tried to push her but my hands wouldn´t move so I shouted her to leave me alone. She did.

“Guessed what we are already?” she tilted her head. I had but it was too unlikely, they were a living myth. My eyes widened. Omega was about to say something when Jaune entered complaining, he was shaking his head, his curls were damped, he was wearing a long leather coat.

“Animals are so tasteless, Omega, please let´s go home”
“I thought you´d found something more like your tastes our there” she smiled charmingly and he seemed bewitched. “We´ll go home soon” she said
“Really?”
“Feed him” she nodded towards me. He glared at me. She laughed. “You´re such a good actor, Jaune” she patted his shoulder and he took her hand and gently spun her around and pull her to him as if they were dancing. He kissed her cheek and she smiled. 

“Now, go feed him, the stronger he gets, the faster we go home” she placed a peck on his cheek. Jaune walked slowly towards me with a scowl, I glared back. He knelt down next to me and bit his wrist and placed it on my mouth, I frowned and moved my face away, he moved my wrist following my mouth, his blood fell over my nose and cheeks and lips, it smelled somewhat metallic. I kept moving my face away and he growled.

“You´re making me lose my patience” he held my head in place with both hands and plastered his lips on mine, I fought but it was useless, he bit my lip and out of reflex I gasped opening my mouth, I felt his tongue darting in and once again I tried to resist, this time he bit my tongue and I tasted my own blood, I squeezed my eyes shut as I felt his tongue again and this time it was me who bit him. I felt him smile against me. I growled, both our bloods mixed in my mouth. I found it odd how I could differentiate the taste of my blood from his. I started to feel out of breath and also disgusted not only by the taste of my own blood but by the feeling of Jaune´s tongue and lips. I bit him again but he only smiled again, that made me mad and in order to not choke from the blood that had already filled my mouth I swallowed it in three big swallows. He let go and I glared.

“Finally” he said as I spit the rest of the blood. He frowned and held my face once again, he made me swallow a large amount of his blood until I pushed him hard, I don´t know how I gained motility but I pushed him with both hands and he flew across the cave, he fell on his feet only a little unbalanced. Omega laughed.

“Well done, Jaune, Sky” she nodded towards me. My breathing was labored
“Don´t ever touch me again” I glared at Jaune
“You should thank him –Omega told me- he´s just given you the ability to move your arms again. Will you keep feeding him, Jaune?” she smiled to the young man
“He can find his own food” Jaune glared “He´s ready”
“I know, dear, but he´s too stubborn, he wants to be dead… your provocations will make him get in command of his body again” she smiled at him and slowly his contorted face relaxed leaving him with a stare of adoration for her, she jumped and he caught her in his arms, she kissed his cheek and then his neck, he closed tight his eyes for a second and then she whispered something to his ear, he smiled.

“Won´t you feed today?” his voice was gentle
“I will” in the blink of an eye she was next to me, she knelt down and bit my neck. I was about to push her but she grabbed my wrist with inhuman force and pined my arms on the ground over my head. She bit me and then se licked me, her black hair tickled my skin, I noticed she smelled like the woods.

“Thank you” she moved her lips against my neck
“For?”
“I like the smell of woods” she smiled against my skin again. She bit me and then licked me again, the more she did it the less it hurt but my eyes felt as if they were being sucked from the inside all over again. I closed them and sighed relaxing my body and focusing on my breathing like some therapist had taught me.

“It´s a good technique –Omega said standing up- but I like it better when you fight” she pouted and her expression was that of a child, it inspired the feeling of wanting to protect her but she was not a woman who needed protection.
“Do you read minds or something?” I asked, she chuckled and Jaune rolled his eyes
“I told you that your blood tells me”
These people are crazy I thought as I flexed my arm and rejoiced on it. I felt pain but not as bad as before, maybe I had grown used to it like when I was alive.

“If you didn´t fight Jaune so much, you´d be able to hear what his blood has to say”
“I thought you said you preferred me when I fought”
“I do” she chuckled. She´d drained me; I felt thirsty, hungry… exhausted in general. I didn´t care about them, I closed my eyes and drifted to something similar to sleep.

“You seem happy tonight, Jaune” Omega kissed his lips; he placed gently his hand on the small of her back. She was wearing a royal blue dress with an ample skirt and a fitted bust.
“I am” he said remaining close. She lifted both of her perfect black eyebrows “There has been an excursion… someone fell” he smiled showing his large canines, she half-smiled and I was terrified by the implications of that

“I´m glad you enjoyed… Did it quench your thirst?”
“Yes” he placed his cheek on top of his head
“Good… tonight you are feeding Sky again. It seemed to upset him and it certainly upset me”
“I don´t want him near me” I said
“I don´t enjoy being close to you either” he said with disdain
“Calm down boys… Sky, you´ll starve if you don´t let him… and Jaune –she placed a hand on his cheek- this way we´ll be home sooner”

Jaune sighed and went to me, I tried to push him but he seemed stronger than last time. It all happened again, the mix of blood and his blood in my mouth, I remembered what Omega said about my blood telling her things and if felt curious which made me go over my disgust of blood and of being pinned down by a man. I decided to control my breathing and swallow small sips. I closed my eyes and tried to relax, I kept swallowing blood, he didn´t bit me anymore but allowed me to do so, I felt a faint sweet smell, like the smell of female perfume, I felt him smile on my lips and I bit him hard causing a small gasp on him. After that I heard a voice, a female voice but it was not Omega´s. I opened my eyes. Jaune had his eyes closed, I noticed his fair skin and tiny purple veins on his eyelids, his curls fell on my face, they were shiny as if they reflected light.

He moved his lips against mine and his tongue darted in and I just bit him again. I heard a laugh, it was not Omega´s. He bit me. I squeezed my eyes closed. I saw a face coming close to mine, a young girl, straight black hair partly covered by a gray hat, she smiled closed to my face and then all I saw was her falling down the cliff of the smaller rock mountains. I felt Jaune moving his lips against mine, it was as if he wanted me to bite him, I did it. I saw the girl covered in blood, blood coming out of her head, I felt myself hoover above her, I licked her face, and she tasted sweet, like her perfume. I kissed her soft full lips. She was moaning in pain, she barely breathed. I bit her neck and sucked her blood it tasted sweet. Jaune started to retreat and I couldn´t help but pull him down, this was sweet and warm, like hot chocolate with marshmallows and vanilla. He smiled and complied. I drank her. Melissa just turned twenty five, she had a small sister and she had wanted to take pictures close to the edge of the cliff. She wanted to be a nurse. She was scared, she felt where her injures were, and she knew she was going to die. “Calm down” I heard Jaune´s voice say without him talking at all. “Just close your eyes and it´ll pass” his voice whispered and then I felt her smell closer, her sweet scent and sweet substance in my mouth stated to turn cold and greasy, sour and I wrinkled my nose.

“She´d died” Jaune murmured against my mouth. My eyes popped open, mouth slightly agape.
“How?” I felt my lips brushed against his
“You heard what my blood had to say” he was just above my face, I felt his breath on me
“You killed that girl” I whispered
“She died when she fell… she was going to die anyway… no need to waste her sweet blood… Don´t pretend you didn´t like it” he started to get up and for some reason I pulled him from the lapels of his coat making myself sit. From the corner of my eye I saw Omega smiling.

“More” I heard myself say and it was no longer myself. I didn´t care about being alive or dead or if I was in heaven or hell or if my family had found the suicide note in my car or if they were looking for my body or if these people were a myth and me with them now too or if I had hated them with all my heart, I didn´t care at all, I just wanted more of that sweet, warm sensation in me. Jaune pushed my hands away

“I´m not your caterer” he huffed. I stay sat, my mind going over and over of what I had known of Melissa, of her sweet smell of her warm essence or her happy smile. I wanted to feel what Jaune made me feel again, pain had gone away, everything had gone away; it was just me and the warm sensation rippling through me.

“Did you figure out what we are?” Omega was in front of me, her hand extended to me, as if she was going to help me to stand up
“Does it matter?” I took her hand and to my surprise I stood up
“No, it does not” she smiled pleased, her gray eyes gleaming “Are you dead?”
“I am” she was slowly guiding me to the insides of the cave where I heard and felt water
“Good. Are you alive?” she seemed to ask the things I had asked
“I am” the texture of the dirt in my feet was harsh but I felt every grain of dirt, the small pebbles and twigs too. 

The cave seemed to be lit when we stopped for a moment and I saw the gray stone above us and around us. Clink. Jaune was playing with his lighter again; the flame was so beautiful in its short life. Clink. It was a silver lighter. Jaune´s eyes were blue, like the ocean, he breathed slowly, he looked at me watching him, he observed me too, the flame on and off as we did so.
“Who are you?” Omega took me out from my dazed state tugging me to take another step
“Sky” I said and her face was filled with delight
“Who are we?” she asked making me step inside what looked like a pool, inside the rock there was a mall pond, some light filtered there making the water glow. It was beautiful.
“The devil and his pawn” I glanced Jaune, he scowled. Omega laughed.
“And… the three of us are…?” she asked, I watched her, her cheeks were perfect, her gray eyes looked feline, she had luscious black hair that fell around her white creamy face, her lips curved in a small smile that revealed a white fang.

“Vampires” I breathed and got in the pond. I felt emptier that ever. 

The Devil and its Pawn I


It had been a long day at work. I was feeling so tired, the night before as many others before that one I had woken up in the middle of the night. The number of the clock that´s on my nightstand glowed with the red numbers telling me it was three forty in the morning. I groaned and turned the other way trying to fall asleep.
It was a Wednesday, Wednesdays were always tiresome, filled with meetings with people that instead of business men felt like meetings with a bunch of fourth graders, asking over and over what it´s been already told.

A/N: Ok, so, I decided to put my thoughts to some use haha 
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The sun was setting, it was six thirty in the evening, I had just left my office. I went to the parking lot walking to my assigned parking space. I got in my car, took off my jacket, my reading glasses and took out my wallet from my pants pocket, I fished in it to take out some amount of money then I put it in the glove´s compartment along with my glasses and a gold ring that my parents had gotten for me when I had graduated from college.

I checked my watch, it was six forty five. I got off the car leaving the keys in the pocket of the jacket that was carefully folder on the passenger´s seat. I walked away to the main entrance of the building where I worked. I had been careful to call a cab before coming out of the office; my cab was waiting for me.

My driver was a middle-aged man that tried to make conversation with me, after I gave him the unusual address. Two hours later we got to the place. It was deserted, dark and only lit by the moon. I paid the man that looked at me with an expression that let me know he thought I was crazy or I was dangerous. I think in a way I was both.

I had arrived at a National Park commonly known as The Devil´s Gate due to folk tales. The park consisted of a large number of smaller parks and four large rock mountains with no trees just the nude black or gray stone. Each rock mountain was bigger than the other. During my childhood I had climbed the highest one a single time, I had gotten to the top completely exhausted and without desire to come down and exert my legs even more. It had been years since that time. This place was known to be the tomb of many people killed during a civil war many years before I was even born.

Slowly, I started to climb the highest rock mountain; I went up through the stairs that had been carved to let visitors go up easier. I was going slow feeling the cool mist going in and out of my lungs as I got closer to the top. Once there I felt strangely excited. I drank half the bottle of water I had in one gulp.

On top of the mountain just like I remembered there were names carved together in the stone as some kind of promise to stay together forever or some other stupid thing like that, there were also a few bushes and the thick metal wires that were there to keep visitors to get too close to the edge. I walked to them and passed to the other side. I sat dangerously close to the edge. I stared at the sky but didn´t see much, the mist was becoming thicker. I listened to the silence for a moment.

From my pants pocket I took out two bottles of pills. My prescription of sleeping pills and my monthly prescription of strong pain killers mixed with other drugs that had been prescribed. I drank them all using the other half of the water I had saved to swallow them down. Immediately, I started to feel sleepy as I felt a slight stomachache. I got closer to the edge. My eyesight got blurry as my stomachache got worse, just barely; nothing that I hadn´t felt before. My eyelids felt heavy and my thoughts felt as if they were melting. I saw memories mixed with thoughts of plans I had have and what I thought tomorrow would be. I laughed like a mad man at the latter despite that I hadn´t found that particular thought amusing at all. It had been what had tormented me throughout the day. My mind wouldn´t let itself be put to sleep by narcotics. I felt when I slipped from the rocks, I felt like a feather or a leaf falling to what I assumed was blackness, my eyes were closer and I felt cold. I died.

I felt heavy rain hitting my face. Is this hell? I asked myself. My clothes clung to my skin and I was in a very uncomfortable position but I couldn´t move and my eyelids felt too heavy. The rain got stronger. I heard a thunder. I winced and my body registered pain. Every single one of my muscles and or bones hurt. It hurt in parts I didn’t even know existed in me. I heard myself groan and then I heard a chuckle. Due to the cold rain and drops that hit my skin I hadn´t registered the moist, soft something that was going up and down from my neck to my cheek. I opened my eyes to see a mane of black wet hair and then I knew what it was being passed on my skin, it as a tongue. I hadn´t died; there was some animal feeding on me. I panicked and tried to move but I couldn´t, all my body was sore and didn´t respond.

The animal kept licking me. I couldn´t see it well, I knew it was a matter of time before it tore apart my flesh. My heart started to beat faster and the animal seemed to like that because it licked even more. I couldn´t exactly feel, maybe it had already torn apart my skin and muscles but since I had taken the whole bottle of pain killers… I couldn´t survive to that, I couldn´t have survived to the fall I said to myself. Maybe I´m dead and this is hell I thought, unable to move, to feel, too dark to see and some animal eating me. It´s just like living I thought as I compared myself to a modern Prometheus.

“You broke your spine and you fractured your head” the animal said after a while
“You talk” I heard myself say with a raspy voice
“Of course I talk!” said the animal, except that it was no animal but a woman of pale face, gray eyes and long black hair that clung to her face. A lightning allowed me to see her.
“Who are you?” my voice stranded. I felt pain that I ignored. I felt pain but nothing else.
“The devil” she said licking the side of my face, close to my hair line
“Am I in hell?” my chest felt tight
“We prefer to call this one Earth” she went back to licking my neck
“I didn´t die” I whispered, the rain drowned my voice
“You did”
“I don´t understand” I wanted to push her away but my body wouldn´t obey
“There´s nothing to understand” her lips brushed against my skin as she spoke. I felt myself falling from the cliff all over again. I closed my eyes, maybe I was hallucinating, maybe I was still falling I thought.

Bird singing made me come out of my slumber. I opened my eyes slowly and blinked a couple of times. It was all dark. I heard and felt water somewhere close, I heard drops and the air smelled like moist but it was all dark. I thought it was morning because of the birds that kept chirping happily, yet the place was dark. I groaned as I felt my legs move. I felt an unexpected pleasure on that then I chuckled to myself thinking on the irony of my life or death, I wasn´t sure if I was dead or alive. I found amusing my joy for being happy about my legs moving when I had committed suicide.

“What is so funny?” I heard a voice close to me. I turned my head to a side and saw a small fire. “Clink” a metallic sound and the tiny light was gone. “Clink” and the fire was on again. This happened several times. a lighter I concluded not being able to make up the person that had talked.

“She war right” I heard the voice closer to me
“About?” I asked. Clink. The lighter show a small fire and I noticed a young man squatted next to me
“You are fearless. A man in your place would be scared by now”
“Death shouldn´t scare death people” I said realizing I was too calm but then that had been what made me think I was dead
“Who says you´re dead?”
“Am I alive?” I asked trying to sit and the pain made me realize I was in fact alive. I groaned.
“Ah, no” the squatted young man laughed darkly putting out the small fire “I didn´t say you were alive” he had left his lighter with that tiny flame. His face looked sallow and his eyes were very dark and he had dark rings under his eyes. His hair was messy. He wasn’t wearing a shirt. His chest was toned as someone that exercises regularly. My mind was still slow, my thoughts felt like thick honey scurrying from my brain. The woman, I thought.
“Who are you?”
“It´s unimportant” he said and I felt him leave my side. I laughed and every vibration of my laughter sent darts through my body, the inside of my veins and organs.
“What’s so funny?” Clink. His lighter produced a flame again
“I must be dead and this must be hell”
“And you came to that conclusion because…?” every time one of us talked he turned on and off the lighter. Every time he did so I caught a glimpse of my surroundings. I was on the ground of a tall cave.
“Because it doesn´t matter who you are…”
“Maybe I kidnapped you” he said I heard humor in his voice as if I was entertaining
“Why would you kidnap a suicidal person?” now my voice was heavy with humor I thought he was stupid for suggesting so

“Someone like me can take more than just your money from you” once again he was squatted next to me. He licked his finger and passed it over my forehead where the animal or woman had licked me. When he did so it felt cold but at the same time warm, he licked his finger again.

“What are you doing, Jaune?” a female voice said. The young man backed up. “Well, what are you waiting?” she said and the young man who she called Jaune walked very fast or very slow, I wasn´t sure, one time as he did so he turned on his lighter and I saw her, she was completely naked, she was very beautiful, her hair was dripping water. I stared at her as she extended her arms and Jaune helped her to some kind of black robe that he tired with a long piece of silk. She looked down to where I was staring at her and smirked then she knelt down next to me revealing on of her nude legs. She pressed her lips to mine, they were cold as if she had just eaten ice, she bit my lip hard and blood started to come out of it, she licked it one time and then she smirked against my lip, her breath was cool. My own blood was drifting into my mouth. I dreaded the taste as my stomach twisted as if acid was being poured in it. I twisted my mouth and she chuckled.

“You have some serious issues” she said getting to her feet
“Where am I?” I asked. I was starting to get tired of their mysteries.
“Does it matter?” she asked
“It does” I said firmly. I noticed the pills were finally losing effect. I didn´t find a tinge of amusement anymore. I wondered how I hadn´t have an overdose.
“And why is that?” she said sitting in an invisible chair. Jaune kept turning on and off his lighter
“I want to know”
“And how would that make any difference?” she crossed her leg
“I never asked to be here!” I said angrily still unable to move
“Oh, yes, you did, else you wouldn´t have jumped”
“You said I was still on Earth. I am supposed to be dead after what I did”
“You are dead”
“Then how come I’m on Earth and not in hell or heaven?”
“What makes you think you could go to heaven?” she raised an eyebrow
“Whatever, this hell is too cold” I said and she and Jaune laughed “Would you stop that!” I shouted to Jaune, his game with the lighter was annoying me by now
“Make me” he smirked. She observed me; the place grew quiet except for the sound of water somewhere close and the clink of Jaune´s lighter

So this is afterlife I thought to myself, feel a lot like life. I stared at some point above my head, it was dark so I didn´t really see much. It was all quiet, the scene stood like that for a very long time.
The sound of thunders awoke me. I hadn´t really slept but my mind had been on a similar state. The lightings allowed me to see glimpses of the cave with more detail. I felt acute pain on my side. I forced my eyes to see. I saw a brown mane of curls and then felt something very cold mixed with something very warm and sticky. My mind remembered and I connected the information. Jaune was licking my side. I noticed for the first time that I was naked. I felt another acute pain below my ear. I tried to look to a side but my head was being held by delicate strong hands. If felt my skin was being licked again. I remember my thought of being some kind of modern Prometheus and those too strange beings were the crows that were going to feed on me forever. I shivered and felt them both smile against my skin. They kept on that for a very long time, they caused me pain and then they licked me making me shiver with their cold tongues and that seemed to cause them amusement. I sighed feeling my eyes heavy as if they were being sucked from the inside.

Jaune moved to my arm and then to my shoulder. I heard the woman growl, now I was amused and colder too, she put her hand over my chest. I felt Jaune slowly moving to my neck, their forehead were almost touching, his curls brushed against my face. I felt his tongue on my neck and then heard an animal growl as he was being thrown away by the woman´s hand; she pushed him with her palm open. Jaune landed on the farthest rock wall, his skull cracked open. She ran to him and grabbed him by his neck.

“Don´t…” her voice sounded like a threat, he lowered his eyes, and she let him go. He stared at me and then looked at her and back at me

“Go on” she said. He walked to me slowly and then he knelt down. There was a lightning; his face was stained with blood. He put his hand on my chest; his hand was soft as hers but bigger. He leaned down as if he was about to kiss me, I moved my face to a side and wrinkled my nose. The woman laughed. He glared at me and grabbed my face and pushed his mouth against mine. He bit my lip as she had done, he bit my tongue and my mouth was filled with blood, it was disgusting. I felt I was about to choke with my own blood. I gasped for air as I did so I swallowed my own blood. Another way to die I thought as I felt myself drifting to death again.

“Are you sure about him?” a male voice that I recognized as Jaune´s asked
“Do I ever doubt?” the woman said proudly
“I don´t like it here, Omega”
“I like it a lot, that water is so crystal clear and there´s barely light during the day, we are never disturbed…”
“We have nothing to feed on” he whined and she laughed
“Before me you never knew a full meal or a meal everyday… You´ve gotten picky Jaune LaSalle”
“Don´t call me that –he huffed- I was called the bastard but he was the one that deserved to be called that”
“Let it go, Jaune, it´s been a long time” she sounded bored
“I´m bored and hungry” he complained
“You can go eat” she said. They sounded like a mother and her child
“Will we go home soon?”
“Once our new-comer is better, perhaps” she informed him, I heard footsteps going away.