Despite life

I was great

Yesterday was good, fun

Despite the pain, despite the walking, despite life

I woke up today to a warm bed, a comfortable pillow, a smile of my brother

I wanted to have a good day

But it seems it´s starting with a lot of drama

I´ve been throwing the word love this whole week

And it just keeps stabbing me

It´s as if what I give is never enough

I just can´t break myself and put me back together to fit what others want

It hurts and it has me broken and cracked and withered

I can´t do it anymore

But that seems to be what others want of me

Maybe they think I´m some kind of clay that they can mold to fit in the spaces they want

When will they mold to me?

Perhaps that's something that someone like me shouldn´t expect

And I don´t

And my heart confuses my mind

And I do

And they expect it from me

And they take chunks of me

I never learn....

Things are still the same, people´s just people, just men, just women...

I could give them names but they´re just what they are

I shouldn´t expect and I don´t but I do

I set myself for things like this

But it´s Saturday and I was wishing for a good weekend

I won´t mold to them anymore, be sad for them, 

Go on loving them despite the pain, despite the stabbings, despite life

And I know I lie

I can´t just forget them like they do once I´m of no use to them...